My Blue Eyes Passion [Part 4]

After I'd fallen asleep, I could only remember the worste, regardless of our passionate sex just moments before.. I don't know what it was, but all I could dream about was everything going wrong that could go wrong, was going wrong in my sleep. The nightmares tortured me so
that I was aroused from my sleep around 2:00a.m. I woke up in cold sweat. I looked down to see Aeron there sleeping peacefully. All I could do was stare at him. I began to cry yet again while
I watched him sleep. I took my hand and began brushing my fingers through his hair. He loved when I did that, it made him sleep better. He always loved sleeping on my chest because he said "I can
hear your heart.." And while at some times it was uncomfortable for me, I would always bite the bullet for him. Just knowing that he's happy regardless of my pain, that's all that really mattered
to me. 

A week later or so I noticed a change in Aeron. It seemed after every few hours he'd get a horrible cough and would be short winded. "Ok, I've had enough! What the hell is wrong with you?" I asked. "N-Nothing, it's just a little cold, thats all.." Aeron replied. I didn't know for sure, I mean don't get me wrong, I felt something else might've been wrong but, I don't think I could've gotten any further than the "cold" even if I tried. And whos to say it wasn't a cold? "Then take it easy, stop pushing yourself so hard, you're still not even fully healed from the accident and already you're trying to run a marathon!" I said in a joking voice. Aeron looked at me and smiled. But the smile I noticed was.. different. It just seemed like he was saying good-bye to me. I guess at the moment I was too caught up in helping him feel better I didn't notice. Then one night while we were up late watching movies, Aeron asked me "Let's go see the sunrise, will you take me?" I looked at him with a questioned face. "Umn, well.. I uhh, sure.. Let's do it."

Aeron lived in a decent sized house, but it wasn't the house that made it beautiful to live there. It was the land. He had a huge back yard, with a lake located in the middle. He'd grown up there so alot of things, like his swing set for example, still were in the
very same placed he'd left them all those years ago. We'd followed a path out the back door. It seemed like we were walking for 20 minutes or so. He took me through a garden walkway. It was very beautiful.
The garden was located next to a pool which was complemented by an under water show of fiber optic lights.

In the middle of the garden, there lay a fountain. He stopped for a minute, as if to remnisce. "What is it?" I asked. "Nothing, I just haven't been back here in... so long." "You know, I never thought I'd get to see this place again.. And I've never brought anyone back here before." I looked at him and smiled. "I used to come back here as a kid all the time. It's more so "my secret place" to get away from anything and everything. Some nights I'd sit back here.. And just watch the stars." He looked to his left a bit, there was
a stone bench to the side of the fountain. "You know it scared me. When.. when it happened.. I thought about alot of things. You, this place, my mother, all of it.. I didn't want to give it up. Not then at
least.. I still had things I wanted to do, people I wanted to say goodbye to. People I wanted to tell I love you to." I wasn't sure what he was trying to get at right there.. But All I could do was listen. We continued down a bit further. We got to the edge of the lake.

There was a huge tree which the branches lay almost at rest, sagging downward. It was coved at the bottom, making a place to lean up against. We sat down there. He held my hand, and we sat down. He leaned his head against my shoulder. We both sat in silence. I put my arm around him and brought him closer. "You know, I've never been good with words.." I started to say. He looked up at me. "What I'm trying to say is, I'm glad were here now. I'm glad I'm with you." I sighed. "I mean just look at us, I never thought that anything would come out of this when I saw you in Highschool. I thought.. Wow he's gorgeous but he's straight.. And I'll never have him.." Aeron took his head off my chest and looked at me. 

"You know, I really never looked at another guy like I looked at you before. I was always into girls, I'll be honest. But there was something about you, and yes, it did scare me. I'd never thought of being with a guy. I didn't have a problem saying "ya, that guy looks handsome.." But to actually be with one, kiss one, make love to one.. It just never crossed my mind.." Aeron replied. "You know, I wouldn't trade it though. I'm not ashamed of loving a guy. I'm ashamed that I gave you so much trouble, denying you at times. When you're not by my side, I feel lonely, I feel incomplete. I can't sleep at night because I can't stop thinking about you. I can't keep focused at times because I need you right there with me. Hell, I don't know how I made it without you for those few years beforehand.. But you know what, I'm glad you're here now.. Promise me though.. Promise me whenever you can, you'll be here..? Promise me you'll always love me..?" I looked into his stone blue eyes as the light reflected off the moon, it was like looking into a calming ocean.. I could only say what I really felt.. 

"I can't promise you I'll be here forever. I can't promise you that everything will be alright, and we'll have it easy, I just can't." Aeron looked down. I took my hand to lift up his chin and said
"But, I can promise you that I'll love you forever. I can promise you that you'll never have to worry about anyone or anything hurting you. I can promise you, that I won't fail you.. When I look into your eyes Aeron, do you know what I see?" He shook his head left to right..
"I see us, I see what were looking at right now.. This place, the calming of the water.. I love you so much, and I want you to know that." I looked towards the water.. "Look.." The sun began rising, the blue light began to turn into a burning mixture of red and orange..

At that moment, everything went bad. Real fast. Aeron started weezing, heavily, as if he couldn't catch his breath. After the the heavy breathing, he started coughing. And coughing harder than usual. "W-What's wrong, are you okay?" I asked. He couldn't respond to me, he couldn't catch his breath. "Aeron!" I yelled.
I could see blood that had been sprayed on his lips from coughing so hard. I quickly lifted him up, and ran like i'd never ran before. "JAAAAMIE!" I yelled loud enough for the whole block to hear once I was at the backdoor. Jamie came running out in only her robe. "Oh shit! Let's go, get him in the car NOW!" She quickly
ran inside grabbed her bag and purse and was out by the car in no time. I got in the back seat and laid him down quickly. With that, she through the car in reverse, then popped the clutch to first, we were hauling ass to the hospital. I couldn't stop crying. I was just staring at him in the back seat. His breathing had only gotten worse, his skin started to feel cold, and all I could think was "Please God, not now.. Please.."

I did the best I could to accomodate him. We got to the Emergency Room, I jumped out of the car, grabbed him and ran as fast as I could. "PLEASE! HELP! I NEED A doctor!". I was quickly accompanied by two nurses. Then, not ten seconds later here came the stretcher. I couldn't stop crying, all I could see was Aeron lying there..again.. and yet I could do nothing. I just wanted to wake up from this nightmare, I really did. As they took him away, Jamie fell into my arms and started crying. All we could do now, was wait. Jamie called
her mother, and she was on her way up there. We sat in the waiting room. Silently. I couldn't stop pacing back and forth. A few minutes later, his mother had arrived. I'd explained to her as best I could at what happened. Then, my heart started pounding. The doctor came out of the O.R. and took Aeron's mom into another area.

She came out with tears in her eyes. "What..is..it?" I said in a shaken voice. She looked at me, and tried to smile. Then the tears came. "A blood vessel burst in his head." She spoke softly. "They.. They can't repair it." The only question I had was "How much longer does he have?". "Not long, they can only guess at this point". 
The tears flooded from my eyes.. I could barely breathe myself. "He's stable, for now." She said. They put him in a private room. Aeron's mother went inside his room along with Jamie. I stayed back, I just.. I couldn't.. I wasn't ready yet.. I started to think, just think about everything. Was I being punished? Did I do something
wrong? Questions upon questions just kept rising from my mind. An hour later, they came out.

"He wants to see you." She said in a soft, overly tired voice. I nodded and began walking towards his room. I got to the door. It took everything I had to open that door, it really did. I just didn't want to see him and think it was the last time I'll ever seem him again. I turned the cold silver coated knob and began to enter. The blinds were open, it was still night time. The moon set across his window, gleeming down on his chest and head. He looked over, he smiled. I could see the tears start to glisten off of his eyes. "H-Hey babe.." I said in a soft tone. He responded in a gruff, weeze sounding voice "Hey".. I pulled the cold steel chair up to his bed. Before sitting down, I just had to, I gave him a kiss on the lips.
When I kissed him, his lips felt coarse and chap. I felt that same cold touch on his skin as I had in the car on the way over to the hospital. I knew.. I sat down. 

We stared at eachother for a minute or so. He reached out for my hand, which I quickly met with mine. "T-They're gonna fix you up, okay? You'll be alright.." I tried to lie to him. "No. I know it's not that simple. The doctor's have already told me." I looked at him, and more tears started flowing. He reached up and wiped the tears from my eyes. "You'll be okay." He said. "It's just.. Not fair.. I finally find you, the person I love more than life itself.. And.. And.. Now its shattered into a thousand pieces.." I looked down at him. His eyes had that same glow effect as if I was watching a calm ocean. "L-Listen to me.." He said. "You'll be alright.. Knowing that you love me this much.. It's all I need." He gasped for breath for a moment. "I'm sorry it had to be this way.." He said as he looked
away. "I just wish I could do more than just sit here and watch you." I replied. 

"You've done so much for me already, you've given me the love I've never had.. Love people sometime's never find.." He looked back at me.
"That's worth everything." He said. "A-are you scared..?" I asked. He took his hand and put it on the side of my face as his thumb rubbed. Ifelt him nudge for me to get closer. I was face to face with him. He took in a deep breath from his nose. "I love how you smell, I'll never forget it. He began to hug me. He lifted up and kissed me, passionately. He moved over on the bed. I took off my shoes. I laid with him the entire night. I remember that night well. I remember the days of passion I had with him. I remember his scent on his clothes.
I remembered the good times we had in high school, the bad times. And the times he would drive me crazy.But most of all, I remember..

My Blue Eyes Passion.