My Life Beyond Fantasy (Part 4): A Mess. [PREVIEW]

Dancing. Loud. Music. Blasting.

I have no idea what I’m doing and I love it. I think that “e” I took was too strong because I’m backing into a wall with some hott guy.

-2:30am: at club 5ive in Toronto-

It’s been too long since what happened in the Turks. And this guy really reminds me of him, and I like that. It makes me feel special. And it makes me feel like I actually matter. He starts licking my lips and we leave to his place.

“You ever do this before?” he asks

“No” I lied.

“Good..i’ll take it slow” he says starting his car.

I can’t wait. I start to undo his pants, and I can feel his dick. It’s so fucking hard, and he moans. 

“Ah, dude – you’re a horny fuck, aren’t ya?”

“Don’t talk.” I say as I bite through his underwear.

“Oh, fuck…suck me off here…I want it in your mouth boy.”

So I take his cock out of his briefs and start stroking it, as he’s still driving. He I look up and his eyes are trying to pay attention to the road, but he stares back at me like he wants me to devour all of it. So I do. I take it and start to lick the tip running my tongue around his slit, and then into it. Making him scream, and I love it. “This is so hott…” he says. I have no idea how old he is, but he looks like he’s in his twenties. I begin to deep throat his swollen dick and move down to licking his balls and massaging it with my mouth. “Oh fuck, please keep doing that…suck me down, FUCK I love your mouth, its so fuckin’ warm and wet”

Great.

He’s babbling like a mad man. I just want cock, so I keep running my mouth on his shaft. Until he can’t handle it anymore. He stops the car on some street, and he pulls back his chair. “You want my dick bad – don’t you boy?” I nod. He takes off his shirt and his abs are hott, but I’ve still seen better. He starts to take my pants and my boxers and pulls me on him, so that I can straddle him. “Oh, please tell me what you want..” I just stare at him. His body is hawt, and this man is model-like - but why do I feel like I’m in a 80’s cheap porn?

“Take my ass, and put it on your dick” He slides on his condom and starts to push it up me. My shirt is off and I have to push him into my chest so he gets to lick my nipples. He begins to slowly fuck me. And I’m bored. He’s grunting, and he’s moaning, and he keeps asking if I like it. Do I like his dick in my ass? No, not really. He lays back, and expects me keep riding him fast. But I just keep the steady pace. He reclines his chair and starts feeling my abs and my pecs, smiling.

He’s pissing the shit outta me. I don’t even know this fucker, and he’s pissing me off.

I stop, and get off him. He looks at me shocked. I shove him over, pressing his face into the head rest of his seat. His briefs are fully off and I look at his ass. It’s hott, so I grab one of his condoms. “Put it on me.” I say in his ear. “Oh, shit –yeah, fuck me hard boy. I wana get fucked so bad by your young cock.” “’K” I say basically ignoring him. I put it on myself, and start fucking him.

I’m fucking the shit outta this guy and he’s almost screaming. I have to shut this dude up so I keep fucking him faster, but cover his mouth. He bites my palm, and it makes me fuck him harder. I’m so angry, and I want to rip his ass up. 

“Oh fuck yes. FUCK YES. Keep fucking me hard. FASTER. FASTER.” And I continue to – making him scream and I start to jack him off. He’s sweating and im sweating and I’m angry fucking him. “Boy, I’m gonna cum now! I’m gonna fuckin’ cum nowww” And he shoots his load all over his seat. He shoots, and I’m pumping his dick so fast and hard it’s making me shiver with pleasure. I pull his head back with his hair. And I pull out of him. I sit back on the passenger seat, and push his face in my cock. He starts licking it, and pushing his mouth everywhere on it. “YEA, I’M GONNA CUM FOR YOU..fuuuck, you ready for my load?” I almost scream. “Give it to me, I wana swallow that shit” he replies.

“FUCKK…” and I shoot my load in his mouth, and he almost gags, but he loves it. He keep swallowing my cum, as I spasm a few times. He looks up and licks his lips gasping for air, since I forced his whole face in my crotch. 

“You wana still wana fuck at my place?” he says while we’re putting our clothes on in awkward positions in the car. 

“Nah – I’m good” why is it the person seems less appealing after you cum in their mouth?

I open the door and start walking.

“Yo, call me!” He gives me his card, and I put it in my pocket. Sure, if I want some hott 80’s-porn sex, I’ll give you a call, I think to myself. I smile a fake smile, and walk home.
-9:30am: outside at school-

And that’s a typical Tuesday night.

I’m suppose to be meeting Dino now, but as usual he’s late. I’m sitting at one of our beautiful high-school campus stone tables, sipping a latte because I’m a queen at heart. 

“Nice sunglasses, B!” someone shouts. I look up. It’s Dino. Brown hair shooting out in all directions, and hot as hell. “Jeez, you look like you’re some celebrity dude,” He says as he steals a sip of my coffee, and puts down his Sidekick. 

“I need to tell you something” I say. I have to get to the point. Fast.

“Yeah, sure bro – tell me anything” Dino replies, widening his eyes in like a kicked-puppy dog look. He’s too innocent for his own good. But a pimp like no ones business.

I tell him. I tell him about the rape. About me being gay. And he’s speechless. 

“SHIT…” he almost screams. “that’s a lot of information, man…” he almost whispers. He looks around and then stares at me, and puts his hand across the table and onto my shoulder. “I don’t know what to say…I mean, is that why you’ve been out like every single night, and no one can, like, ever find you?” he asks wrinkling his brow. “I guess…” I say not knowing if I should run, or cry here. 

“Oh, and I kinda got the feeling you were gay..i mean, dude – I tried to teach you for like a week how to take off a girls bra, and you never learned, AND you didn’t even do anything with the girl afterwards…even though she was beggin’ for it” He says smiling. I crack a “Brandon-laugh”. 

“As for this fuckin’ dick who did that shit to you…I’m gonna find him and fuckin’ kick his ass.” Dino is serious. He has his serious face on, and it makes me feel less lonely, and more like he’s my older brother.

“Yeah…well, I thought you should know this..i donno, I thought you had the right or whatver..” I say almost mumbling.

“Dude you shoulda told me earlier.” He says, taking the rest of my latte. “It’s cool though, but B - I gotta go, let’s chill later tonight and we can actually talk..i’m glad you told me though. OH and I think I can hook you up with some hott dude.” He says winking. He pats me on the back, and runs off. And then walks back and hugs me from behind while I’m still sitting. He laughs and runs off again.

He took it too well. And it makes me smile. I don’t think I’ve done that since last year.
So - it’s hit me. It’s senior year in high school, I’ve come out to four people, two of which happens to be Jess and Dino. I have no idea what I’m doing after this, I’ve been depressed since last year, I have anger-management issues, and I have a crush of Luke Waterson, who happens to be straight and banging me whenever he wants. I really don’t think I can deal with this, and since graduation is slowly approaching, I will soon have to wear a silk blue gown, and wait for my name to be called. 

I think I miss Carl. 

TBC-

Comments!? Suggestions? I’m taking the series to a more “dark place” lol..this was just a taste of what’s gonna happen.