My first time having cock.

I wanted to be with a gay man for a while but I was always too nervous. I would stay up late at night until early hours in the morning watching a wanking to gay porn.

Then one day I decided to go one step further as I felt like I had seen every sexy porn video on most porn sites. I decided to go on dating sites like agaymen.com and "chatrandom". It was there where I found my absolute love for gay men.

I was on agaymen.com as I would be most nights, being skipped and skipping people when I came across an older man whom I would say was in his late 40s or early 50s. Grey hair, a hairy chest and a very dirty mind. Immediately he complimented me, and we wanked together with me cumming very fast and very hard. We both wished each other a goodnight and I went to sleep.

For months I searched and searched on those types of sites looking or someone similar to him but could never find anybody quite like him. Due to this i then searched online for gay dating sites. I found one called "fabguys", signed up and almost instantly started to receive messages asking to meet up. I never signed up to the website for this reason, i signed up to chat with people and cam with them. I would say that o average i skyped with around 30 men, some sessions were good and some bad but then that eventually got old.

At only 18 I found myself at a crossroad and I didn't know what to do, I could come out of the closet which would make my life 10 times easier or continue being secretly in love with cock. I was also under pressure as the only pleasure i could now get which would satisfy me would be to meet up with someone for the real thing.

I continued to use "fabguys" and I found a guy called Jamie who was 41. We messaged each other for about a week and then decided to meet up in a park called Sheldon country park. We decided to meet and see where things went from there but in reality i think we both knew what we wanted. For me it was to get fucked and for him it was to get some action. The arrangement was to meet each other at around 3am so at 2am i jumped in the shower and gave myself a good wash including inside my ass. I was too horny and started to finger myself in the shower which made me even hornier. I left at around 2:40am on my pushbike and arrived just after 3am.

When i arrived there was no cars in the car park which made me think that i wasn't going to happen. I went on my phone and messaged him asking him where he was, he then replied look towards the path on the bench. I could barely make out a figure of someone but could see him. I locked my bike up near a lit building and went over to him, he grabbed me by my wrist and said 'you're going to love this'. We the went off into some bushes on the park. We then found a good spot, he forcefully spun me round and we started kissing while he was rubbing his hand over my cock. I was nervous and didn't know what to do other than kiss him back but he soon got hold of my hand and placed it on his bulge.

His cock felt huge and hard! We kissed for about 5 minutes while touching and feeling each other. His hands moved around my body onto my ass, it felt like he was trying to finger me but i still had all of my clothes on. We then stopped kissing, 'go and bend over that log' he said. I was extremely horny at this point and could feel the precum dribbling out the tip of my cock which has never happened before. He came behind me and started dry humping me. He then dropped my trousers and my underwear as well as his and rubbed his cock up and down my ass crack. 'You want this cock' he said 'Yes please' I replied. 'Im going to fuck you without a condom yeah' 'You want me to fuck you bareback and breed you?' he asked.

With him taking control i felt so sexy and horny. 'yes' i replied. He spat in my ass crack a few times while rubbing all of the spit on my hold with his cock. Suddenly i felt the worst pain i had ever felt in the world and screamed. He had rammed his cock in my hold without loosening me up first. He collapsed on top of me saying 'shhhhh' 'it will fell better soon'. We hardly moved for about 2 minutes other than his very slowly thrusting into me. Which then the pain turned 180 degrees and became absolute pleasure. He now has started thrusting me harder I was now moaning but pleasure.

The thrusts got harder and harder with my ass hole getting loser by the minute. He stated to moan now and i knew that this could only mean one thing... he was going to cum. He bear hugged me and i felt his cock pulse. My ass was being filled with his cream. He stood up and picked me up with him, we kissed and he said that was so hot, we should do it again sometime to which i agreed. We got dressed and left the park he want off his way and i went back to my bike. I did have tissues on me to clean myself up but preferred the feeling of his cum dripping out of my ass. I headed home and had the best nights sleep and woke up in a very good mood also.

We have spoken a couple times since then and will be meeting up in the next couple of weeks. I just hope it is as good as the first time.