My romantic story

September and high school is back on in my town, my name is Nathaniel and im finally a senior at 18 years old, it's been a long summer and im excited to see my friends and even more excited about the recent changes to my life, i came out as gay to my parents and most of my family beginning on August 28Th. They all took it well and were accepting but now i need to let my friends know, and i want eventually everyone who is friends with me to know, im tired of the awkward conversations with people talking to me about girls even though i know they will always be there.

A couple weeks ago my hair dresser asked me how i was doing with the ladies with my dad standing a couple feet away. I blushed and she said "I know your a killer with the ladies don't lie to me." I just said "Ha ha nothing lately Samara." and she wasn't wrong before i came out i had a lot of girlfriends, who understands girls better than a gay guy am i right or am i right?

But i never was attracted to any of them no matter how hard i tried to fight it i knew deep down i was gay but only accepted it recently, it gave me a lot of trouble in my faith but God came to me and told me he loved me this way and i listen to him before any one else.

I'm not bad looking either, i think my ears are too big and used to get teased about them but its just whatever now. I have short brown hair blue eyes a slim nose but not a pointy one and my teeth have always been trouble but since i got my braces off they are straight and i keep them nice and white. I don't play sports but you would think i did, i have broad shoulders and as far as i can tell a nice chest and a four pack, i love the way i look in jeans that fit me just right my legs are slim but fast and the way i like them on other guys.

Im in no way attracted to athletes, at least not for being athletes, if they are good looking that's one thing but just athletes in general make me go limp. I like guys who are a bit dorky and are worried about how they look which i find funny because those guys are usually hot no matter what. There's a certain body type that i like though that seems to be rare at least among gay guys if you have ever seen Kurt Wild (porn star) his chest abs and legs are what get me going and I've noticed not a lot of guys at my school look like that. And the ones that do im pretty sure as straight, there's not many good looking gay guys at my school. I'm not shallow but who doesn't enjoy some eye candy?

Although there is this one guy, i don't know if he is gay and like i always say innocent until proven gay so i assume he is straight. I see him at lunch and when i get the chance look at him for a minute or two to look for any signs he might be gay, he doesn't come to any of the GSA meetings so i cant be sure, but i know he is for gay rights and all. Sometimes i like to go over to the group he sits with in the courtyard and talk to one of my good friends that also sits there just so i can hear him talk, he has the cutest laugh.

From what my friend has said and what I've heard his name is Patrick, he's a senior who just turned 18, he's a bit of a geek and doesn't do any kind of sports but maintains this cute slim figure and his under chin remains at a right angle which goes amazingly with his perfectly cut from stone face. His hair is a couple inches longer than mine brown and wavy, and then his eyes, oh his eyes, like emeralds that sparkle with his perfect smile. He always wear plaid shirts with a white undershirt that hug him perfectly some khaki shorts and some form of Sperry's and looks like a total prep which gets me going.

About 3 weeks into the year and September is almost over, im in the school play Willy Wonka playing Augustus, not the best role but whatever because my scene is the funniest in the play and will be the best acted, not to brag or anything...
I've talked to Patrick a few times and learned that he likes to be called Rick, i told him he can call me Nate if he wants, which little does he know is an honor, no one but a few of my best friends can call me that.

But as far as i can tell he is most likely straight, he doesn't talk about any one he is attracted to, girls or guys, which i guess just means he likes girls but because he hangs out with a bit of a dorkier group none really talk to him, i would swap friends with him though, a few of the girls i know who don't know im gay yet still hang on me at rehearsal and lunch and will often want hugs for "no reason" but when they hold on for extra long obviously smelling into my shoulder for a whiff of my cologne its a bit obvious they want to be more than just friends.

But i think I'll stop pursuing this one he shows way too many signs of being straight and he is innocent as far as i can tell so it's time to move on and just be a not so close friend of his. For the next few days i just eat my lunch inside with my best friend Allison, it was Thursday and we were talking about the guy she likes from our church and how to tell whether or not he likes her back and i explained of course how she could tell that he obviously did, mid conversation i see a figure walk through the cafe doors that catches my eye, i look up from Allison's eyes and see those beautiful emeralds and that lovely smile as Rick sees me and begins to walk over.

Allison notices my attention has strayed and sees the surprise on my face, as she turns around her mouth flies open, she knows everything about me and how i like him and she looks at me with an excited look as she gets up to clear a seat and walks out the door passing him, i look away from her walking away and back at him he doesn't even acknowledge her passing and keeps his eyes focused on mine but i notice her checking him out as she passes by, typical Allison to be honest but i love her.

"Where have you been?" He says sitting down where Allison was sitting.
"Well i thought id come in here to have lunch for a few days." Total lie.
"Well, i miss seeing you dude i thought we were becoming good friends, how about you walk to my house after school with me tomorrow and we can play some video games." What in the world? We shared maybe a few words each day that i was with him out in the courtyard i don't know what he is talking about when he said good friends.

"Well sure i don't have rehearsal but it's an early release day are you sure your parents wont mind us being there at Noon?" I'm doing my best to stay casual but i must admit im a bit flustered just sitting next to him.
"Oh no worries, i have friends over all the time my parents wont care." He must mean his friends from his little lunch group that always talk about games and card games. Though it did dishearten me a bit to hear this is just a regular thing for him.

"Sure let me just call my ma real quick." I get up as he nods and i can feel myself blushing like crazy i go to the back of the cafe out of sight and lean my back against the wall breathing heavily i quickly call my mom and let her know whats going on and shes fine of course, i knew she would be i just had to catch a breathe before going back, im a decent actor but it's harder than ever to act like im not completely attracted to this short little adorable kid sitting next to me, the fact that he even went looking for me makes my heart beat a little faster.

But i have to remember he is straight its just going over to hang out, that's what straight guys do right they hang out and play games and stuff if im not wrong? As far as i know they do. I put on a calm face and walk around the corner and look to where he and i were sitting and-....he's gone. Confused i just kind of stare at the seats disappointed when i feel someone's eyes on me, i look to the left at the tables and nothing, then turn right and-
"OH, Geez!" I turn around to see him right in front of me.

"oh, sorry didn't mean to sneak up on you dude i just went over there to get us some coffee." It's now i notice the two cups he is holding in his hands.
Calming down i say "oh, its alright but you should know i don't like regular coffe-"
"Oh i know, you like Vermont country blend decaf with 3 teaspoons of chocolate milk mixed in" He says as he hands me a cup that smells like the only coffee in the world i drink let alone enjoy. I look at him and he gestures for me to try it and skeptically i take a sip while looking at him and he smiles while chuckling a little and spinning side to side slightly.

"This is perfect...but how did you-"
"I asked your friend about you, the one you always sit with when you sat with us at lunch." Catherine, i should have known. Me and her go out for coffee all the time. But more shocking than anything is that...he asked about me.
"Uh, well thanks i guess how much do i owe you?"
He almost chokes on his coffee while taking a sip. "Ha Ha, oh please Nate."

I'm like half a foot taller than him and definitely have more facial hair but he is the one buying me drinks, I think my heart just stopped.
"Well uh thanks then i guess ill see you tomorrow alright?"
He stops laughing and a disappointment comes over his face "You aren't going to let me walk with you to your class?" Catherine again, how much did she tell him about me. Of course i knew our next classes were next to each other but i didn't think he knew.
Blushing a bit but keeping it from being noticeable i say "Well i guess that would be alright."

His face brightens again and i just love to see that smile. "Great lets go." I walk with him as he talks and i just love listening to him he talks mostly about the car he wants to get but cant yet because he needs to wait for a promotion before he will be able to afford the insurance. All i can think about is how cute he looks in the afternoon sun under the shade of the trees as we walk through the courtyards, i cant believe im going to be one of those gays who falls for a straight guy and wastes his time, unless he really is gay, that would be....more than wonderful. Perhaps, i'll be able to tell after seeing him tomorrow...at his house.

My heart started to race as i thought about this in calculus my last class of the day, what will i wear, should i bring some spending money in case we go out or something, how late will i be staying will i need a jacket? all these things running through my mind and i feel like a school girl, this is going to be a long period.

To be continued in My Story 2
....Coming soon.