The Purpose of Philosophy

*** Stave I: the day that started everything - Leo

I never thought that this will happen to me. My name is Leo, I’m 17 years old, and I’m an asian From the islands of Philippines. I never thought that my Philosophy teacher, Mr. G, would really hook up on me. Whenever I attend his class he always look at me as if he was irritated to me or as if he was disgusted at me and worse … as if he knows my most hidden secret and the last thing in the world that I want people to know about me – I have greater attraction to guys than girls. I’m always sure that no one except those guys whom I had sex with knows I’m a little bit gay ( I have sex with girls sometimes if I felt like it). I’m a straight acting gay. I always make my reputation clean… until that day…

I love attending Mr. G’s class not because of Mr. G or the lessons but because I can check-out on a classmate of mine whom I’m obsessed with. Well, I find those Fil-Am guys to be hot. In the university that I’m attending, there are plenty of Filipino-American guys roaming around and I can’t help myself to be attracted to them. Well this stud that I’m obsessed with is named Drew, a little bit taller than me and older than me. His smile is cute and it was matched with his tantalizing eyes. I felt melting when he smiles… though not really at me. Drew never spoke to me or just glance at me and that make me feel sad thinking that he was probably straight. Drew sits beside the window and I sit on the other side of the room but I still can check on him freely without anyone noticing me.
Right now, I’m busy staring at Drew..when..

“Mr. Leo Aquino! Who is Aristotle??” Mr. G took my attention. My eyes got big and I looked at him.
“sir? Can you repeat your question again sir?” I said acting formal and relaxed.
“so you are not listening to the discussion Mr. Aquino, why is that? I can see you daydreaming about something and why are looking there?” I can see that he was pointing directly at Drew …I blushed… the he continued “ what is it on that window that seems good to stare at?”

I know he was waiting for my answers even my classmates look the same too…they’re all waiting for my answer… I started to dive in my imagination looking for the best alibi… Brain blast! I exclaimed to myself I proudly stood up and said
“ well, sir, to my answer is…….uhmmmm…. “ I smiled and said “ Aristotle, the Athenian student of Plato, was born in 384 BC. He was a naturalist who uhmmm provided the philosophical basis of science that was dominant for 18 centuries…His father was a physician in Macedonia who died when Aristotle was just boy then he moved to Athens and became Plato’s pupil. He then returned to Macedonia and became the teacher of Alexander, king Philip’s son, who is known as Alexander the Great and….” I looked around seeing some of my classmates open mouthed and mr. G raised an eyebrow ,he was speechless for a while. I somewhat know that he was disappointed of my answer and that I refocused the thought of the class… he looked at me as if I’m a super bad boy.

“ he also-“
“that’s enough Leo” Mr. G interrupted me. I can see him pissed off and he said “ you should thank that window for giving you an answer” he pointed again his fingers toward Drew, but he was indicating the window. Some of my classmates laughed throwing me smiles and thumbs up. I think they don’t like Mr. G too. Then my eyes strayed at Drew’s direction that is looking back at me with his cheesy smile. I thought I saw him wink and I smiled back at him….
“ ahemm… uhm lets go back to the lesson, class” Mr. G said interrupting the cheesy moment between me and Drew. What a jerk. I focused myself back in my book blushing and feeling proud of myself for pissing Mr. G and impressing myself in the class and at last having a contact with Drew!

The class went on me fantasizing about Drew again and being weirded by Mr. G’s reaction. Is Mr. G’s got a crush on me? I asked myself. No way! In reality Mr. G is quite good looking too, he is 29 and he is a well built man, the only thing that is wrong with him is his taste of clothes, he dresses up with an extra large Polo shirt and pants, he wears a harry potter eyeglasses which is bigger and looking old. Mr. G is a total mess and I was thinking that if he changed his fashion, I might be interested in him. Yuck!

I looked at my watch and I see that there’s only 30 seconds before the bell rings and as usual, I strapped my backpack on and prepared to leave. Mr. G looked at me and said
“ I can see that you’re ready to leave now even though the bell hasn’t rang yet…stay here after the class… I need to talk to you.”
My classmates loved me so much that they looked at me giving me pitying looks and good luck gestures. I looked at Drew and the bell rang. Drew looked back at me and smiled again. He stood up and started toward the door with my classmates. Once the classroom is cleared, mr. G who remained silent standing beside his table moved towards the door and closed it then he said
“ you didn’t answer the question that I asked you awhile ago, right?”
“ no, I answered it…”

“I didn’t mean the question about Aristotle, what I mean is about the window. I want you to answer that now” fuck… he’s a real jerk…
“ what is it to you that you want me to answer that stupid question of yours? Does that really matter?” I asked…I was losing my respect to this man…
“you’re not looking at the window.” He suddenly said. I was shocked by his statement and I felt that my face got red. Then he opened his mouth to speak
“You’re looking at Drew”

I don’t know what to say… I hate him in that moment. I clenched my fist in anger . My face is so hot that I want to punch this man to death.
“ I am not looking to anyone!” I shouted at him, I lost myself that moment that my voice echoed throughout the entire school.
“ Yes you are, leo…you are obviously looking at Drew and you’re making me…uhhhh…. jealous” he said in a monotonous tone.

My anger vanished, my cheeks got red. “ what? Did I hear you correctly? You’re jealous of me by just staring at Drew?” I don’t know if he meant that or if he is just making fun of me. My anger was suddenly gone. I waited for his answer.
“yes leo…” his voice softened and he looked embarrassed of what he just said . “ I knew that you like guys the first time I saw you because I can see myself in you when I was like you age… I too was like you hiding an identity that is wanting to be free but chosen to be kept to stay cool and have a clean reputation.” He narrated staring directly into my eyes. “ I’m in love with you leo”

I stiffened when I heard him say that. I tried to open my mouth to speak but mr. g took a step closer to me that I can feel his body heat into me. Our faces are just a couple inches away from each other. He kissed me and I didn’t pull back. I let him kiss me deeply, I can feel his tongue parted my lips as he entered me mouth that’s the time that I kissed him back. I was lost… I never thought that my philosophy teacher would be confessing his “love” to me and kissing me at the same time. Our tongues searched each other’s mouth trying to find something, going deeper inside him. I was so hot that I got a boner instantly poking mr. G is his groin that is hard too. He moved his big hand into my ass and started massaging them still kissing me. I closed my eyes for a while and opened it... I woke up in reality… I pushed him away and I ran out of the room…

As I rush out of the room, I saw someone beside the door… and I think he knows what happened inside… I ran faster… afraid, ashamed and angry…happy at the same time…

TO BE CONTINUED...

( sorry, no love scenes yet)