First time gay

HOW I REALIZED THAT I AM GAY

I fell asleep at a party from drinking. I sitting upright on a couch. I woke up from an erotic dream to find the male who was hosting the party performing oral sex on me. Everyone else had left.

At first, due to my upbringing, I was angry and disturbed. I found as much as I wanted to resist, the turn on was so intense, I let him finish. I could not reciprocate. I reasoned that it was because I was drunk. Every time I would see this friend, I would get a bit turned on, but denied it to myself.

I went to his house to explain that it was a mistake. I was drunk and caught off guard. I told him that I was sorry, and that I was not gay. He accepted my apology and we watched football and drank beer. All of a sudden he pulled me into his arms and started kissing me, I started pushing him away, until he grabbed my hard as a rock erection through my pants. I could not deny it any longer, I was turned on so much more by a man than I ever was by a women. I love being gay!