Danny and Alex : Part 8

DANNY’S POINT OF VIEW

I woke up lying on my side, Alex and I had taken the day off, it was the day of Norman’s funeral. I lay on my side and stared out the window, when I lived at home with my parents I would lie in bed and gaze at pictures of New York, now I got to admire the real thing. Alex lay on the other side of the bed, for the last few nights we hadn’t slept touching each other, each of us just lay on our own side of the bed, he had tried to put his arms around me every night but I just wriggled away, a couple of days ago he had acussed me of not taking my pills, I couldn’t believe he didn’t have more faith in me, I know I’m overreacting and he probably didn’t mean it that way, but I guess I just have a lot on my mind at the minute. I sat up, rubbing my eyes, today was going to be tough, and I knew I would need Alex more than ever. Norman had been like a father figure to me since we arrived here.

I felt Alex place his soft hand on my shoulder, I turned and seen him lying on his side with one hand behind his head, the cover was folded back revealing his perfectly toned upper body but concealing from the waist down. “Good morning beautiful”. “Good morning”. I laid back down and rested my head on his stomach, I felt his hand gently brush my hair from my face. “We should get ready”. I didn’t want to be late today. “Yeah, I was just about to get up and get a shower, care to join me?” I felt a smile creep across my face “I’d love to”. Alex and I showered together, he massaged my body gently but didn’t try anything on. We stepped out of the shower and got dried before getting dressed. We both wore suits and black ties.

I cried the whole way through the service, it was beautiful but horrific. I thought nothing was going to cheer me up but at least I knew this day couldn’t get any worse, that’s were I was wrong. I opened the door to our apartment to find a ghost from the past sitting in our living room, they sat with a wicked smile on their face, pleased with the shock they had left on my face, I had no idea how they had found me but they did, I stared at them in disbelief. “Aren’t you going to say hello?” They had a mix of sarcasm and pleasure in their voice. “Olivia?” I smiled at my old friend and once the shock had sunk in I ran to rug her, I threw my arms around her and held her for the first time in months. I spun her around in the air and as I did I saw Alex leaning against the wall with a clever smile in his face, he must have invited her. He backed out of the room, giving us some time alone.

We sat and talked, just like old times. I explained what life was like here, and about Norman, and she informed me she was here on vacation and going home later today, I was upset but I was still glad to see her. “So anyway, enough about me and Alex, what’s happening with you at home?” I was eager to hear what had happened in my absence. “Well, actually there is one, rather big piece of news.” Olivia reached out and grabbed my hand, placing it one her stomach. “Pretty soon I’m gonna hear the pitter patter of little feet”. A huge smile spread across my face, I couldn’t believe Olivia was pregnant. “Oh, wow, congratulations, who’s the lucky guy?” Olivia smiled. “Well, it’s you, you hugged me too tight when you came into the room”. I tilted my head to the side and laughed at Olivia’s cheeky remark.

“Seriously though, who is it?” The suspense was killing me by this point. “It’s Kevin’s”. “Oh my god, you two? Jesus Olivia you couldn’t wait to get rid of me could you?” I laughed with Olivia and we talked about her pregnancy and made plans for me to visit when the baby was born and for her and Kevin to come here, oh and their baby off course. When it came to her leaving I was upset, I didn’t want her to go so soon, it was like she had just gotten here. I hugged her tight and kissed her on the cheek before walking downstairs with her. Just as she left I saw Alex come up the steps at the front of the hotel. He smiled at me and took my hand. “Well?” Alex asked, inquiring as to how our reunion had gone. “It was great, thank you”. “It’s fine, I heard she was in town so I secretly arranged for her to see you, thought you might need some cheering up.” “Well in that case it worked”.

We arrived back in the room and got changed. We both threw on sweats and t shirts before settling down to watch TV. We turned of all the lights before closing the curtains and finding something to watch, Alex got a blanket to put over us, he sat in the corner of our corner sofa and I lay down flat with my head rested on his lap. I felt happy and secure as I slowly drifted to sleep.

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ALEX’S POINT OF VIEW

I watched the end of a film we had been watching before turning the TV off, I sat for a few minutes watching out the window while Dan slept on my lap, then I turned my attention back to the sleeping beauty, slowly I lifted his perfect, resting body and began carrying to the body, gently I set him down on the bed and began undressing him, I successfully managed to pull of his top without waking me and then I began to pull of his trousers, his head moved slightly and his eyes twitched slightly before opening in shock horror, immediately he jumped away from me. “What the fuck are you doing Alex?” Danny seemed afraid and shocked. “You fell asleep I was just” I tried desperately to explain but Dan cut me off before I had the chance. “How fucking horny do you have to be to rape your boyfriend?” Dan now seemed more angry than anything else. “No, Dan, that’s not…” “Don’t try fucking lying, do you not understand what I’ve gone through today? I fucking guess not, you just have to get some” I started to see a different side to Dan, I was scared and upset, I felt a lump form in my throat and tears form in my eyes. “Dan, please stop, you’re scaring me.” I pleaded with Dan to stop his abuse but he seemed relentless.

“I don’t care Alex, I’m sick of this, you’re constantly at work and then you think you can just strip me while I’m asleep? Argh, you’re so fucking selfish, just like all your dickhead friends from home, you’re only after one thing!” Dan screamed at me with pure hatred in his eyes. I couldn’t take it anymore, I opened the wardrobe and pulled out a small bag I used for the gym. I went through the drawers and cupboards taking out some things I would need for the next couple of days. “Dan sat on the bed and stared at me, his eyes looked different, like they were full of hate. I wanted this all to be a bad dream and hoped I would wake up any second. “Oh, so now you’re just gonna piss off, that’s amazing thanks Alex”. I started crying at that point, I couldn’t believe the way he was talking to me, it felt like I had been stabbed repeatedly, I had never felt pain like this before, Dan sat in silence after those last words.

I left most of my clothes, planning to return in a few days when he had calmed down, when I had packed everything I would need for the next few days. I reached the doorway and without turning back to look at the enraged Dan I tried to hide the pain in my voice when I said goodbye to him. “I’ll be back soon Daniel, I love you”, there was no reply, only silence, painful, soul crushing silence. I walked out of the apartment with tears rolling down my face, I reached the lobby shocked to be confronted by a whole new nightmare although I didn’t know it yet, I was stopped by a man who seemed familiar although I didn’t know why, he was about to make things much more difficult for me tonight.

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DAN’S POINT OF VIEW

It had been almost an hour since Alex left, I sat on our bed crying, feeling alone, desperate for him to come back, I didn’t know why I had said those horrible things, I couldn’t get his face out of my mind, how upset he had been, I didn’t even say goodbye. I got up and walked out to the balcony, as usual, lights could be seen everywhere, people having normal nights while my life split into tiny pieces. I couldn’t believe what had happened tonight, I never thought I would find myself in this position. I put my head in my hands, somehow hoping by some miracle this would all go away.

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ALEX’S POINT OF VIEW

I cried, and cried, and just kept crying. I had been left with no other choice. I lifted a knife, and dragged it across my wrists, wincing in pain, I watched as the blood poured from my arms, I felt dizzy at the blood loss already, then hoping to end my pain, I brought the knife to my throat, and quickly pulled it across my neck, slicing the skin causing blood to pour over my white top.

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DANNY’S POINT OF VIEW

I jerked forward, waking in a cold sweat, I had been having the worst dream, Alex and I had broken up, he left and I didn’t even say goodbye, and then he slit his wrists before committing suicide, thank god it had only been a dream. I panted, trying to catch my breath while wiping sweat from my forehead, I turned to check on Alex who was still sleeping only to find he wasn’t there, his side of the bed was almost perfect and clearly hadn’t been slept in, suddenly I realised that he actually had left, only the suicide part was a dream, the horrible feeling of loneliness returned when I heard a knock at the door, suddenly I found myself excited, I found myself smiling as I sprang up and ran towards the door, desperate to have the chance to apologise to Alex and make it up to him. I opened the door to a beautiful man, who honestly I had not expected to see tonight.

He was a man in his mid thirties with short brown hair and big brown eyes, he flashed his perfect smile at me. “Jack? Why are you here, how did you find me?” I stared at the second ghost from my past to be brought back into my life today, I couldn’t believe the man who I had ditched at the last minute was here, the night Alex had left me. “I had to see you, I cant give up on you, so I checked your files, found out you were living here, can I come in?” I thought about the situation for a second and then reluctantly stepped aside, allowing my former psychiatrist to come in. He smiled at me as he stepped through the door. “Sorry if I seem a little upset, but I hadn’t expected to see you, and well, it’s been a tough night.” I didn’t want to tell him about Alex, but I knew he would worm it out of me. “Talk to me, you know it’s good to talk about your problems. “He left me tonight, I snapped at him for no reason, and he just left.” I broke down and started crying at admitting my relationship had failed. Jack laid his hand on my lap, but it wasn’t comforting the way Alex’s was, I felt uncomfortable and didn’t want him touching me. Then he leaned across and kissed me on the cheek, the feel of his lips didn’t send bolts of electricity through my body the way Alex’s did, instead it made my skin crawl.

I pulled my head back, happy to have broken the contact between us. “Get out, now go!” He didn’t put up a fight, instead he just got up and walked towards the door, but before he left he uttered words which scared me, words which sent chills down my spine. “Alex won’t come back to you.” His voice sounded robotic. “You don’t know that.” I protested, determined not to let him walk all over me. “Yes I do.” And with that he slammed the door, leaving me alone, confused, upset and scared, I sat on my own, quivering, for the first time I didn’t have Alex to protect me, and I didn’t like it.

Thanks everyone for reading! There’s more coming up from Danny and Alex in the new year so keep your eyes open for the next instalment! Please let me know what you think by emailing me or by leaving a review and let me know how you want to happen next! JS