My greastest self pleasure to date

My name is Joe and I am still a gay virgin, wanting to lose it of course. I would not say I was gay or bisexual, I have had many girlfriends and find girls attractive, but I love the thought of a being able to suck a mans cock and having them pleasure me anally. I would admit to being a very horny boy who is very open and willing to try most things. Although unfortunately have not come across the opportunity to carry out any fantasies with anyone apart from myself, which I love doing but I get excited by the thought of someone else actually doing them to me one day.

My weird fantasies first started when I was hitting puberty and feeling funny things down below. Before I started masterbating properly I used to find it pleasurable to rub my cock against soft things, such as pillows. The very first time I did this till a came was after I'd come across a pair of my mums thong panties and was so attracted to them and amazed by the beauty of such underwear I decided to wear them whilst rubbing my erect cock against my pillow. It was amazing and from then my masterbating techniques and fantasies grew and grew. As did my love for womens panties.

I would not say I was a crossdresser as I am mainly attracted only to the panties and mostly wear them. I have a very large collection of panties from thongs to french knickers, some purchased myself others I have taken from peoples houses or came across other ways. The more I masterbated the more curious I became and having been already wearing women's panties I didn't see anything wrong with looking into other stuff. Such as anal pleasure.

I brought my first dildo when I was 18 and pleasured myself regularly with it. Most times whilst wearing panties pulled to the side to catch my pre cum. They would get so wet. My dildo had a lot of use and recently I thought it was time to upgrade. So I did. I brought a 8" realistic cock dildo, with balls and suction pad so it sticks to most things.

A couple of nights after it had arrived in the post I ended up with the house to myself and was very horny to try out my new toy. So went upstairs and opened her up. It was amazing, so realistic I couldn't wait to have it up my arse. I stripped naked and lubed up me arse. Playing with it with one finger first, then abit more lube and two fingers until I had four fingers stretching my arse to prepare it for the insertion of my rubber cock. I stuck the cock to the wall in my bedroom at a nice height to be able to push my arse on to it. I thought I'd first lude it up by sucking it and pretending I was givving head to a real cock.

Getting it all nice and wet. I then rubbed some lube on it and It was ready for my arse. First though I put on my favourite pair of panties, a cute yellow thong withe white dots and pink frilly edging. I tucked my dick in side and pulled them out of my ass crack to one side exposing me lubed but hole. I turned around leant forward slightly and slowly started pushing my arse onto my dildo. It felt good. As my arse accepted the 8" cock I gradually started thrusting onto it faster and faster then paused for a second, I was so horny. I decided I should watch some porn to thrust in time to. So I got my blackberry and searched for some hot gay twink anal porn. Once I found one to my liking I downloaded it. But this takes some time. So whilst that downloaded I got my arse a little more used to the big cock being inside it. It also needed some more lube, but rather than using normal lube I decided on something else. Me own cum.

I love the thought of someone cumming in my ass and giving me a creampie but usually after I cum I lose my hornyness, but luckily as this always happens I had I small bottle of my own cum from previous wanks I'd saved for such occasions. So I reached into the cupboard and got it out, hovered over the open bottle and inserted it in my arse. Then lay on my bed and lifted my ass into the air with my legs coming over my shoulders. This way the cum could poor out the bottle into my arse. This experience alone felt amazing. I then removed the bottle and but my panties over my crack. I then headed back over to the wall where my didlo was dangling. I could feel some cum filling my panties as it leaked out me hole. I picked up my blackberry, which had now finished downloading and hit the play button. I placed it on the side so I could see it and then used my hands to pull my panties down to my knees and insert the rubber cock up my ass.

The sight of the cum in my panties was enough to make me want to come already. I was slowly teasing my arse with the cock whilst the gay porn was in the foreplay stages, then as one guy started to fuck the other I went in the same motion, pumping my ass hard with this 8" cock. Harder and harder, faster and faster re adjusting my postion slightly every so often to hit the right spots. It was amazing. I kept in time with the thrusting of the porn and stopped when they did to take a breather. Then would carry on. I did this for about ten minutes and could feel my cock wanting to cum as it was the hardest I'd seen it, dripping precum into my panties around my knees. I thrusted harder and harder. It felt like I was going to cum so I went faster until it actually felt liked I'd cum only a hundred times better as I hadn't even came but felt so release from the orgasm. By this time I'd slowed down and was gently moving back and forth on the dildo until I pulled it out.

As I did the cum from earlier squirted out down my balls, over my panties and on the floor. I turned round and fell to my knees in front of the dildo still dangling on the wall. My legs were shaking. I could see the dildo was covered in the cum I'd put up arse and was dripping off and as I'd still not yet came, although it felt like it, I was still horny. So took that big cock in my mouth and liked away all the cum and swallowed.

It had got quite late so I cleared up and got ready for bed, but just in case there was anymore cum still In my ass I got out a nice fresh pair of white cotton panties and put them on under my pjs to catch the cum. I then got into bed and fell asleep only to wake in the morning to a damp patch in my panties. Which turned me on so I masterbated to the images and memory in my head from the previous night.