When I'm with you: Part 4

On saturday night I was cruising in the back of a cab heading into the centre of london with Harry, Robbie and Rose. Us four had got a taxi because we lived pretty close and it would be easier for us all to get back home together. We were planning to meet everyone else there, and I don't know why but I was pretty excited to see TJ again. I had tried to copy the rest of the guys baggy jeans and a simple plain coloured top look and I must say I probally looked better tonight than I had in my life. As we stepped out the Taxi onto a main road lit up with lights and full of people the luminous atmosphere overtook me. I no longer felt like the little kid of the gang anymore, I felt new and alive! For once I wasn't even worried about lying to my parents about going out at night.

I saw Kai with his arm round Eddie first, then took in the huge gang of people we went round with and the four of us walked over to them. TJ didn't say anything to me, but winked at me instead. "Lets go que up" our friend Mike suggested. We all joined a que outside a club called 'Magenta' which was illuminated with pinkish red lights. I watched everyone get checked for ID and realised not only were half of us under the age limit, none of us had any ID with us, I started to freak out and Dan hissed at me to relax before we gave them away. As we got to the doors I was exspecting them to ask for ID and when we had none tell us to go home, infront of everyone, I imagined the embarrassment! But instead when the young woman came to face us I watched Kai and TJ flex their muscles and give extremely sexy model smiles. The woman at the door blushed and let all of us straight in!

We walked down a long flight of stairs, I could feel the music vibrating them. We got to another set of doors where the bouncers suspiciously eyed us but then just asked us for £10 each to get in. The doors were opened and suddenly loud music and flashes of light in a dark smokey room aroused my senses. We walked in further, lots of boys and girls around our age or maybe a few years older were there, all dressed up, ordering drinks or on the dance floor, this was a new club so it appealed to younger people I guess. I noticed Lauren Matthews, a pretty red haired girl who TJ took a lot of interest in was with us. I watched her take Eddie and Katie's hands and pull them into the dancing crowd.

About ten minutes later they returned and came to join us where the guys were having drinks at a table. Everyone seemed pretty relaxed apart from me, TJ looked at me for a while and then pulled a bag out his pocket. "Who's up for these?" he said, shaking the bag with small blue pills inside them.
"Nah not me!" Lauren said slightly shocked.
"Cool" Eddie smiled, holding out his hand. TJ placed the small round pill in Eddie's hand who quickly swallowed it. This was soon fallowed by Katie and Rose who downed the pills and then made their way to the dance floor. I watched Kai, Harry and our other friend Charlie agree to the pills. I heard the rest of the group deny the pill and mutter something about planning on drinking enough alcohol to get them buzzed for the night. "Well Tyler, what about you then" TJ said smiling at me. Everyone looked at me, "Erm...Okay" I stuttered as TJ placed the small blue pill in my hand. I stared at it for a while, "Tyler quick swallow it before we get caught!" Charlie said nudging me.

I placed my hand to my mouth and swallowed the pill along with a gulp of Kai's beer. "How long does it take to kick in?" I asked. TJ leaned in close to me, so close like he was going to kiss me again "Not long" he giggled and then steered away from me onto the dance floor with everyone else, I fallowed entering the crowded floor. About five minutes later I felt a tingle all through my body, the music felt like it was inside my head, it was amazing, for some reason I just wanted to rip my clothes off and kiss everyone around me, however I restisted. I'd lost the guys litrally two minutes after we'd all got on the floor, but in the distance I could see Kai, Lauren and Dan. I didn't mind, I just danced with the random people around me who all seemed as pleased with my company as I did with theirs, I noticed we were all stumbling about a bit more than normal.

When I was far too hot and bothered I staggered off the dance floor to go and get some water when I crashed into TJ. "Woah! Ty your all red lets get you something to drink mate" he said, bringing me over to the bar to get a drink of lemonade. He then helped me over to a table in the corner where I sipped on my drink half of it spilling down my chin. TJ laughed and helped me put my glass back on the table before taking my hands and placing them on his crotch. I don't remember who moved in first, only that TJ's tongue was inside my mouth, softly at first, but then getting rougher and rougher, yet it was passionate. The room started spinning and to me the music seemed louder, it kind of put me in a trance and I jumped up and led TJ to the dance floor. He got behind me, I could feel his cock getting harder and harder behind his jeans as he grinded into me, his hands securely on my waist as he kissed and sucked on my neck.

There must of been a fight or something within the crowd because suddenly me and TJ were separated. Once again I didnt mind that I was alone and for about five minutes I danced by myself when I saw TJ in the crowd a little bit away from me. I tried to push through everyone to where he was dancing when I stopped dead in my tracks. I watched him pull Lauren close and shove his tongue in her mouth while squeezing her arse through her shorts. Even though I was still heavily under the effects of whatever pill TJ gave me all my emotions came kicking in. I turned round and ran out the crowd and tried to find the toilets. The main toilets were extremely busy so I walked round the club a bit and came to find a small bathroom. It was empty apart from a young man being sick in the toilet and his friend helping him.

I leant down over the sink and splashed my face with freezing cold water. "He's going to fuck you up" a strong voice said from behind me making me jump. I looked up into the mirror to see Eddie standing behind me.
"You know the whole sneaking up behind people, getting inside their head thing isn't cool Eddie" I said, maybe a little too agressively.
Eddie just shrugged and hopped up on the side next to the sink and looked at me.
"I saw you make out with him, and I saw him all over Lauren and watched you run away, he's screwing with your head, he's using you" Eddie said seriously.
"Your just jealous that he's not interested in you anymore!" I said turning to look at him fiercely.
"Tyler i'm just trying to help you!"
"Fuck off you don't even know me!" I spat at him, looking back I knew it was whatever i'd taken making me like this.
"Yes but I know him! You know him, he's aware that your an easy target to take advantage of" Eddie said jumping off the sinks and putting his hand on my shoulder.
"Stay away from us!" I screamed pushing Eddie into the wall before storming out the bathroom.

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It got late and everyone descided to call it a night and head home. I'd spent the rest of the night dancing with random people, I wasn't in the mood for any of my friends so I made friends with a group of people all pretty drugged up. "Tyler we've been looking for you for hours!" Robbie said, dragging me off the dance floor and up the stairs into the cold night air. The feeling of the icy fresh air made me gag but luckily I wasn't sick. I crossed the road and joined everyone who were ordering taxi's home. I felt a heavy arm round me, "You want to come and spend the night with me, it will be just the two of us" TJ whispered in my ear, his breath tickling my neck. I smiled at him and with his arm still round me walked over to Robbie, "I'm gonna stay at TJ's tonight instead, if thats okay with you?" I said to him. "Yeah sure, I mean I just would of passed out when we got home anyway" Robbie laughed. I noticed Eddie was standing next to Robbie who mouthed "Don't" to me.

Why was he trying to ruin everything? "Yeah" I said firmly, "I'd love to come stay at yours TJ." I felt extremely buzzed, due to the pill and excitement. Of all the people in the club TJ was leaving with me, he could of picked anyone, he wasn't using me, he liked me, I thought proudly as TJ lead me to a taxi and helped me inside. Our tongues massaged together, rough and wet, just how TJ kissed me as we sat in the back of the taxi. He undone my jeans and even though the cab driver was in the front I didn't restist him. TJ squeezed my cock then started stroking my foreskin up and down, creating beautiful sensations on my cock while our tongues fought. I noticed the driver looking in his mirror at us a few times, but I didn't care, infact I enjoyed an audience.

When we got into TJ's house we litrally sprinted up the stairs and burst through his bedroom door in each others arms. We started ripping off each others clothes until our t-shirts and underwear were torn rags on the floor. I always thought i'd be the more sensetive lover, but I was wild, vicious and at that moment I loved the way TJ made me act. We fell onto the bed sweating and breathing heavily, then while I knelt on the bed TJ stood next to it and placed his dick to my face. I opened my mouth and took down atleast five inches of his cock and sucked him up and down, I loved hearing his groans. TJ, the boy i'd always wanted to be, the leader, the best at everything, his hard hot cock was inside my mouth and I was pleasuring him beyond belief.

Even though he was only eighteen compared to me he was a man, the thought excited me until I was rock hard and dizzy with lust. I licked his huge balls, sucking them both into my mouth hearing him moan. I felt myself forced onto my back and TJ land on top of me, his lips pressed against my lips again before going down and biting on my nipples. "Ahh!" I screamed as a wave of pain and pleasured washed over me. He kept going down, licking my soft stomach. TJ went past my cock and started licking and biting the inside of my hairless thighs before pushing my legs way up for access to my arse. I had always been curious about how two men pleasured eachother but hell I was about to find out alright.

TJ's huge hands spread my cheeks and he licked all the way up the crack of my arse causing me to heat up completely. I lay there with my legs open as he started licking my arse, eating it out just like he said he would on the phone. I moaned so loudly as his tongue went inside me, he was fucking me deeply with it. When I was soaking he pulled his face away "You taste so much better than any pussy i've ever had" he said smiling at me before shoving his long middle finger straight up me. It hurt at first but after a while when I got used to him playing with me it started to feel so good. I rolled about on the bed my legs trembling, it was the first time i'd ever been entered, and I felt so full. He watched me look down at his cock then look into his eyes. "You sure?" he said, taking his finger out.

"Take it, i'm giving it to you" I said, my head still spinning from the pill. TJ spat on his hand and rubbed it on his cock a few times before flipping me over and putting me on all fours. I felt my cheeks spread and more spit on my hole. I braced myself, trying to relax my body as much as possible, but nothing could of prepared me for the pain I felt next. It felt like I was being ripped apart as TJ's thick cock slowly entered me, once it was all the way in TJ only paused for about five seconds before he started pounding me. "Ouch, ouch, ouch" I whispered to myself, I didn't want to tell TJ he was hurting me, I wanted to please him. But jesus he was so big, way to big for a virgin hole. His hands were gripping my soft hips while his pelvis slammed against my chubby arse as he plowed me balls deep. Now and then the head of his dick would rub a spot deep inside me and for a few seconds pleasured filled my whole body making me shake. TJ thumped into me without mercy his hands wetting my side from sweating so much.

I was sweating too, the pain and pleasure driving me mad, I felt like I was going to pass out. I moaned sweetly as TJ rid me of virginity once and for all. TJ picked up the pace and started grunting loudly "Fuck I love you!" he moaned, I couldn't even think straight as he hammered into me his thrusts getting harder and slower. Without warning I felt something warm and wet spray up inside me, it felt weird but amazing too. TJ stopped and slowly pulled out of me, "You need anything to wear to bed?" he asked, walking over to his draws and getting a pair of boxers out. I nodded and he threw a large pair of striped boxers over to me, well large for him, they fitted me just right. I kind of liked wearing TJ's underwear, it made me feel so special!

We lay down in bed and he put his arm round me. I had cooled down but he was still very warm which made me snug and sleepy. TJ was one of my bestfriends and that meant he cared about me and really did love me. I'd broken the rules of my religion but I didn't feel bad, if it was with someone I liked then it was okay. I turned my head and looked at TJ who was already snoring loudly with his mouth slightly open. I snuggled into his armpit, feeling the fuzzy hair on my cheek and drifted off into my new found lovers arms.

When I woke up the next morning and went downstairs TJ was cooking bacon sandwitches. "Hey beautiful" he grinned at me. I coudln't believe how good he looked even though his hair was messy and he had stubble round his face. "I don't feel to good!" I groaned placing my hand on my forehead. TJ looked at me concerned and then poured me a glass of water. I downed it happily and felt a little better. We ate our bacon sandwitches in silence, but not an awkward one, it was more a silence of thought. A few days ago I thought the idea of being gay was just plain wrong, but now I was really liking a boy, and hoping that he liked me back. Once we'd finished I went upstairs to get changed and then TJ walked me to the door. "See you on monday" he said, leaning in and kissing me, it was hard but gentle at the same time. "Bye" I whispered as he withdrew the kiss and started to make my way home.

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It was about two in the afternoon, i'd got back from TJ's house around eleven and started to feel pretty bored. I got a call from Dan asking if I wanted to come and play football in the park and to tell TJ. I happily agreed and descided instead of calling TJ I would suprise him at his house and invite him. I showered, brushed my teeth and dressed in a pair of shorts and a hoodie. When I was in TJ's road my heart started beating faster, I felt out of breath as I approached his house. I knocked three times and waited patiently he opened the door in a pair of boxers. It was weird that he hadn't dressed today. "Umm...Hey Tyler" he said. "Hey, the guys are over at the football pitches, Dan wanted to know if you wanted to come too?" I said smiling. "Sure let me just go and get dressed" he said leaving the door open and heading for the stairs. I fallowed him and he turned round and gave me this look like he was going to try and stop me but then didn't.

As I entered his room I noticed something. The bed sheets were messy even though when i'd gone upstairs to put my clothes on this morning I had made his bed as perfectly as I could. Then I smelt TJ's cum, and his sweat and a smell of another liquid which wasn't mine. I felt a sharp pain in my heart and looked up to meet his nervous eyes. "Has someone else been here" I asked, even though I knew the answer.
"L-L-Lauren was here, she left half an hour ago" he muttered, looking at the floor.
"Litrally three hours later and your on to someone new" I said.
"You know what i'm like Ty..." he said, like he was being reasonable or something!
"I thought you cared about me..." I gasped, fighting back the tears.
"I do Tyler" he said, looking everywhere in the room but at me.
"You said you loved me!" I shouted.
"It's just something you say when your fucking Ty..." he whispered.
"No! It's the three most powerful words in the universe TJ. You just used me!" My voice my cracking, I knew I was about to cry.
"You were up for it too..." he said.
"You know how important virginity and purity is in my life, i've risked everything, i'd probally be fucking excorcised or disowned if my family found out, but I risked it all for you!" I screamed, I started shaking and felt a tear roll down my cheek.
"It's just Lauren Ty! She's just a hook up, she means nothing!" TJ explained.
"Just like me then huh?" I whispered turning to face the door.
"Can't we just forget about it?" TJ begged for the first time.
"I don't think we can TJ" I said calmly with my back still to him and then walked out of his room and out of his house. When I had rounded the corner of his road I let all the pain drain from my eyes.
It angered me that he didn't come after me, it showed he didn't care. But I was also glad, he could never have the satisfaction of knowing how much i'd wished for his love...

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