When I'm with you : Part 6

"Holy shit!" Lauren panted from underneath me, "Oh my fucking god!" she screamed, high pitched, like I fucking hate. So weird a screechy like the sound of the bed springs underneath us. To be honest I was just listening to the radio in the background, more interested in getting off than making sure she was enjoying herself. Why not? It's just sex. "Yes T! Right there T, right there!" she moaned, then gripped onto me, letting out another really annoying scream, before we both collasped and were still for a moment. "Wow, that was amazing!" she giggled cuddling into me. "Yeah...Great..." I mumbled, shifting a bit, I wasn't the cuddling type. "So TJ what now, wanna watch a movie or something?" she questioned, running her hands over my abs. "No, you better fuck off before my parents get home from work" I said. Lauren sighed, got out of bed and started dressing, I don't know what her attitude was for, she knew that when she came to mine after school there was no kissing, cuddling or watching films, it was a quick shag and go. She wasn't my girlfriend, so I didn't have to treat her like she was.

Once she was gone I just lay there, the radio guy talking about the weather or whatever. Truth is my parents weren't going to be home for two hours, there was plenty of time to watch some stupid film but I think you've got to actually like someone to want to cuddle up and watch a film with them, I don't like Lauren in that way, she's just some hot bitch that I can brag about to my friends. To be completely honest my parents would not care if they came home and found me screwing some girl, my dad had walked in on me getting a blowjob before and was actaully quite proud of me. Laughing about it with me afterwards and going on about how I had all the ladies in town under my thumb. I went for a shower, I was still pretty muddy from football practice. It was awkward to say the least, being on the same team as my ex-friend Tyler, who I had slept with last saturday. He was a good friend but I couldn't for the life of me work out why he was being a little bitch about the whole thing. It was a one night stand, he was stoned and completely up for it, i'd tried talking to him at school, even called him once, for me that was making an effort, but he didn't care so now I don't either.

I walked back into my bedroom naked, desciding to air dry in my warm room. I stood infront of my full length mirror, tensing my stomach and flexing my arms, watching the muscles bulge. Yeah, I was checking myself out, but to be honest you would too if you looked like me. big ego, of course! But I had every right to be proud of my looks, sounds kind of sad, but to be honest, they're all I have. I climb into bed, still horny, I was never satisfied. I wish me and Ty were still getting on because that was probally the best fuck i'd ever had, so warm and tight, and the way he moaned as I plowed him, so hot! I felt a stiring from down below, I shut off my dirty thinking as I couldn't be asked to jerk off. I got into bed, my head hit the pillow and I was out like a light.

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I strolled into school and down the corridors, every girl I went by would look at me and some of the guys would too. I smiled to myself, greeting everyone who called my name or said hi to me. "Kai! What's up you weren't in yesterday, you missed practice!" I said, walking into form early, ignoring the fact that Tyler was there. "Yeah, we were having a bad day so we just descided to go into town and have fun didn't we?" he answered, half to me and half to Eddie who nodded then cuddled back into Kai's arms. "Oh right..." I muttered and sat down. I don't know why but for some reason when I saw them cuddling I got this sick feeling in my stomach, but I wasn't disgusted I was more...fuck it, I don't care. The day was a normal shitty day, I never payed attention in class, I didn't actaully need to, my dream was to become a footballer or a sports teacher, and I did well enough in that lesson, so I was pretty much sorted.

"Come to the park after school with us all" Kai said, as we were sitting in afternoon form. It was cold but I was always up for going out with everyone. So once the bell went and we were all released from school everyone casually made their way over to the park and sat down. We were all mucking about and talking, but as the sun went down and it got even colder something changed inside me. I watched Eddie and Kai snuggle together for warmth, I also watched Harry, Robbie and Dan doing the same with their girlfriends. Lauren wasn't there, Tyler wasn't with anyone but seemed fine on his own. I don't know why but I felt a sense of longing, something I haven't ever felt. "I have to go!" I stated, standing up quickly and walking away, not even waiting for anyone to say goodbye or ask why I had to go. I heard a few of the girls talking, sounding confused, and Dan calling me back, but I didn't want to sit and be around all their lovey dovey shit.

When I got home I sat in my room and thought about the feeling i'd gotten watching everyone together, I had this sudden urge to cry, but thats not me, I don't cry about anything, crying is for the weak. I went and stood infront of my mirror. I had loving parents, I could do whatever I wanted, sure I wasn't rich but when I needed money I was always lent it by mum or dad. I had the looks, the friends, the popularity, so what was it? Why did I have this feeling inside me, like I was missing something? I looked closely at myself, then smirked, "Your not lonely TJ, you have never wanted a deep meaningful relationship and you don't want one now" I said out loud to my reflection, reasuring myself that all was well and good.

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The next day I strolled into form, holding my head high, my bag on my back. "Hey, how comes you went yesterday?" Rose asked me as I took my seat next to Kai. "Just didn't feel all that great, thought I was gonna puke or something" I muttered, that was true to some extent. "Oh alright then, glad your feeling better now" she smiled. The gang starting talking about something but I wasn't really listening, I noticed Tyler was sitting in the corner of the room, away from the rest of us, but he wasn't alone. He was sitting opposite a boy named Codey Day, a guy who had come out to the whole school when we were about fourteen. He was a nice guy, decent looking, but why on earth was he talking to Tyler? I felt confusion and anger all mixed into one, but I had no idea why I cared. I watched them closer, Tyler was smiling, laughing at his jokes, like they'd been friends for ages. Though there was no body language to show that they were anything more.

At break we descided to sit out on the school field. We sat in our circle, I ended up being opposite Tyler, who was trying to look everywhere but at me while he ate his yoghart. I don't know why but I couldn't stop looking at his eyes, they were sky blue and shining today especially against the grey sky above our heads. I was staring, I didn't realise how much I was staring but when I came out of my little world I realised Tyler was looking at me. He tipped his head to one side and smiled at me, I grinned back and winked at him, making him chuckle. Maybe he was starting to forgive me and realise that the conflict between us wasn't worth it. I was about to say something to him when, "Well there you are!" Codey said, parking himself next to Ty. They both started talking quietly. The rest of the gang didn't seem bothered that all of a sudden this guy had taken so much interest in Tyler or that he had descided to sit with us. Maybe this was just an issue between me, myself and I.

"What?" I heard Codey laugh. I looked up to see Tyler watching him closely, they're faces weren't close enough for kissing, but still pretty close for two friends. "You've got something on your face" Ty said innocently. "Where!" Codey said. Tyler dipped his finger in his yoghart, then quick as a flash placed some on the tip of Codey's nose, "There!" Tyler chuckled. Codey mocked a suprised face, then whiped the yoghart off his nose, "Your going to pay for that!" he said frowing. The frown turned into a cheeky smile before he jumped on Ty and tickled him. Tyler started rolling about and shrieking with laughter while this Codey guy had his hands all over him. I felt something inside me, like a pit in my stomach, I didn't have to sit here and watch this. "Need a piss" I annouced, and started quickly walking off. I came to the conclusion that I didn't like how immature Tyler was acting and not the fact he was flirting with another boy.

At the end of the day the team and I were making their way in the changing rooms for practice. I've never had an attraction to another guy's body, to be honest the whole point I slept with Tyler and had a thing with Eddie was because I wanted to know how it felt and if it was better than sex with a girl. But there was something about watching Tyler getting changed for sport that really stirred something within me. For a while he stood there in just his snug little pants, talking and laughing at some of the other guy's jokes. What I loved about Ty was even though he was clearly a boy, his skin was soft, warm and smooth like a girls. And don't even get me started on his arse, it's amazing! So plump and full, but also very firm. Watching him standing there in his underwear made me just want to walk over, kneel behind him, pull his pants down and stick my tongue between his cheeks.

"Seen something you like TJ!" Kai suddenly said really loudly. I looked down and realised i'd grown a huge boner when thinking about violating Tyler right here in the changing rooms. I just grinned, I wasn't at all ashamed of modeling my hard on infront of all the guys. I pulled my hoodie on and looked up, Tyler was looking down at my boner, he then looked up into my eyes and winked. I licked my lips at him before walking out onto the pitch waiting for Coach Douglass to give us our first drills of the session.

Once practice was over and I was getting changed Tyler came up behind me. "Can I walk home with you tonight? Robbie has doctors and is getting a lift straight there, so I have no one to walk with" he said, smiling sweetly at me, running his fingers through his blonde hair. "Sure you can Ty" I said, grinning down at him. We walked out of the changing rooms and started making our way home, it was silent, I was waiting for him to start the conversation, when that didn't happen I descided on taking the matter into my own hands. "So...I missed like hanging out with you" I said, kind of embarrassed to say shit like that. Tyler laughed softly, "We last talked on sunday, it's only been a couple of days TJ!" I shook my head, "Yeah but that's a long time not to talk to one of your best mates for" I replied. "Let's just forget about it, it wasn't important, I behaved ridiculously, i'm kind of embarrassed about it all" Ty said quickly without looking at me. "You? Behaved ridiculously? Tyler it was me who did it all and fucked up that great night!" I said rather loudly, luckily nobody was around.

Ty stopped dead in his tracks and looked at me. "TJ, can we just forget about it please?" he sighed. I nodded and we carried on our walk. "So what's the deal with Codey Day? You guys seem pretty close" I asked, even though I didn't really want to know what was going on between them. I watched Tyler's cheeks blush, the last time I saw him blush like that was when we were making out. "Well you know, he's a nice guy, we get on really well, but were only friends right now, but maybe we will become something more once we've known each other longer" he giggled. "Oh...cool..." I felt sick in the stomach and started walking quicker, not quick enough that he would notice, but quickly so we'd get home sooner. We got to the old church, I asked Ty if it was the one he went to but he said it wasn't, that his was much bigger and grander. "But theres something about this one, I like it more" he said, walking over and sitting on the wall, the sun was already starting to go down.

"What you doing?" I asked him, feeling confused as to why he was stopping when his house was just round the corner. "Just wanna sit and catch up" he smiled, patting the wall next to him, I walked over and took a seat. We sat in silence for a while, the wind was tickling my cheeks. "So you still seeing L-Lauren" Tyler mumbled. I could tell it was difficult for him to talk about her. "We fucked on tuesday night actaully, but once she was gone I realised I have very little interest in her, haven't even spoken to her since" I replied. "Oh I see" Tyler smiled. Silence fell again, but it wasn't awkward anymore. After a few minutes I felt a head on my shoulder, Tyler's soft blonde hairs on my chin. Without thinking I rubbed his back gently, more gentle than I was with anyone. I felt something weird in my stomach, something I only felt when I was really excited. Did Tyler excite me in more ways than sexually?

Time went by, Ty and I just sat there, staring into space, still close together. There were stars out tonight, shining brightly, it was now really dark and really cold. "We should get going i'm freezing" I suggested, sliding off the wall, I turned and reached for Tyler's hand, I don't know why I did this, but was pleased when he took it. We made our way home, Tyler softly singing or humming certain songs as we walked. As we got to the end of the road it was time to part. "I'll see you tomorrow TJ" Tyler said putting his arms round my neck, he looked at my lips for a while, then cuddled into me instead. I held him in my arms, his cute face burried into my shoulder. "Bye!" I smiled down at him and he looked up at me, we stayed like that for a while, then he turned away and I watched him disapear down his road, once he was out of sight, I quickly made my way home.

It was weird how happy I was to get up and go to school this morning. I felt a sense of excitement rush over me as I walked down the corridors into my formroom. I was all ready to see Tyler, after all we had just made up and after last night I felt closer to him than ever. I opened the door smiling, everyone was inside, for some reason I was twice as happy to see my friends together than I normally was. But as I looked over into the corner my smile faded. Tyler and Codey were sitting where they would normally, only this time they were much closer, their legs rubbing together under the table and they were kind of holding hands, playing with each others fingers. Tyler was smiling and blushing while Codey talked. After a few minutes Tyler noticed I was standing in the doorway glaring at him. He tried to smile at me but I looked away and strolled across the room to sit with Dan and Kai, I wasn't in the mood anymore, I really wasn't.

It was the end of the last lesson of the day. Tyler had Art and I had Technology, two lessons which were right next to each other in the same department. I waited for the bell to go then quickly gathered my things and rushed out hoping to catch him. I saw the back of his head through the crowd of other Art students. "Tyler, Tyler!" I shouted, he turned around and looked in my direction. "Tyler!" I heard another guy's voice say, then Codey appeared next to him. "Hey what are you doing here? I thought you had maths now" Tyler said, placing his palm on Codey's chest, this made my heart jolt. "I did but I wanted to know if you could come help me out, you see my mums just text me to ask if I can get a few things from the store, I was wondering if you wanted to come with, someone to hang out with, might make the trip slightly more enjoyable" Codey replied, he grinned and put his hand on Ty's shoulder. "Sure, why not? I don't have to be anywhere right now" Tyler said cheerfully, they then walked off, mixing with all the other people coming out of their classrooms.

Once school was finished for the day, and believe me I have no idea why, I descided to fallow Tyler and Codey to the store. I had to keep a good distance from them so I wasn't noticed. The problem with doing that was when I entered the large store they were completely out of sight. I wondered around for ages, a few people gave me strange looks as I kept looking over my shoulder, it would be awkward if Ty spotted me sneaking around a super store on my own, it was embarrassing, this is something I would rarely ever do. THERE! I spotted them, they had stopped at this small cafe inside the store and sat down to have a drink. I kept behind a stack of clothes and watched them...
"So! Is spying on someone through a pile a t-shirts something you do often? Or is this just a one off for you." a voice behind me said, making me jump out my skin, I span round to face raised eyebrows and a smirking face.
"Fucking hell Eddie, what's with the sneaking up on me?" I snapped.
"Why are you watching Tyler drink coffee, he's your friend, your allowed to talk to him?" Eddie replied.
"I don't want them to see me, it would look sad, me on my own."
"Whether they see you or not it still looks sad TJ. What happened last saturday? When you went home together" he looked into my eyes, staring right into my head, I knew even if I didn't tell him he could read the look on my face, so I just gave in.
"We fucked" I sighed.
"If you fucked, and you guys were great friends before, then why is he with someone else?"
"Because I fucked Lauren, litrally hours after he'd left, and he came back later that day, and he could smell her, I couldn't lie to him so..." I mumbled.

Eddie let out a short sarcastic laugh and shook his head at me. "You pissed me off by fucking Lauren, you lost Tyler because you fucked Lauren. Is she really that great that you have to wreck everything around you for her?"
"No but...Why are you here Eddie?" I started.
"Came with Hollie to get her some hairclips. Why are you here TJ? And don't try and lie to me" Eddie said firmly.
"Last night, I was just sitting with Tyler for ages and I don't know, I just want him to be with me right now instead of this Codey guy, I just want to go over there and tell him how I feel about him being with someone else. I don't know if their in a relationship or not, but...Well me and him are good friends and if we could be more then it would make me so happy..." I trailed off and looked back at Eddie who stared silently at me for a while.
"Then you need to stop fucking it up, go over there and tell him how you feel, what you need from him, before it's too late. He obviously likes Codey, so you have to make sure that your the number one guy in his life!" Eddie ordered, taking a step towards me.

"But look at him he's happy, he's smiling and laughing. I give up Eddie" I sighed, attempting to get away from everybody and out and store. But Eddie stood infront of me and stared even harder at me. His eyes then widend, "You love him!" he gasped, his mouth open. I looked around, hoping that Hollie who was browsing at the shoes, couldn't hear us. "No..." I said, but it was obvious by the sound of my voice that Eddie was once again, correct.
"I'm in love TJ, I see the way you look at him, I can sense the face of a man who's in love from a mile away" Eddie said, a little softer and less intimidating than he was before. My silence confirmed everything he had said and he turned to walk away. "Oh and TJ, just remember" Eddie said over his shoulder, "You can have anything if you want it enough."

I waited for Eddie to walk away. Annoyingly he was right, I came out from behind the clothes, Ty and Codey were standing up and about to leave the cafe when I strolled over to them. "Tyler I need to talk to you!" I yelped. Tyler blinked at me, like he couldn't believe I was actaully here on my own, fallowing him. To be honest I couldn't believe I was doing it either.
"Tyler, I know I fucked up last time I had the chance to get closer to you. But lately i've realised that I want us to be together! Bestfriends again or even more. Just please, i'm begging you to give me another chance to prove myself to you. I've felt something that I have never witnessed before in my life! My feelings for you are getting so deep!" I said, dramaticly, pouring my heart out as I held Tyler's hand in mind.

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I couldn't actaully believe TJ was saying these things to me. Since when was this the kind of person TJ was? He didn't care for relationships. Or that was the story last time i'd tried to be with him. What made the whole situation twice as bad was the way Codey was staring between me and TJ. I guess i'd kept silent for too long. "He doesn't care TJ, now go away, because we were enjoying ourselves before you came along" Codey spat out his words at TJ. What was he doing? TJ had been my friend for years, why was Codey being rude? I thought he was a nice guy...

"I was talking to Ty, if that's okay with you?" TJ said, he was polite but I could see his fists were clenching.
"I've heard what you did to him, your pathetic! Your just a child who thinks he's something special, and can just walse back into someones life when he's clearly interested in someone else right now" Codey said cruely. I knew this wasn't going to end up good, "Codey don't be like that, and TJ walk me home, we'll talk about this, it's a bit awkward to discuss all these things with everyone around, come on lets go!" I said, holding onto the TJ's hand.
"Tyler, if you go i'm never going to speak to you again... Infact I don't give a shit, I can't be fucked to be involved with all your drama. Your so stupid Ty, to be going off with him again, so fucking stupi-" Codey never got to finish that sentence. TJ's fist was in his face quicker than a flash. Codey toppled backwards and into a table, causing all the plates to fall off, luckily they were plastic so nothing was broken.
"Fuck this shit!" Codey said and stormed out of the store. I wanted to go after him, apologize about the whole situation. I know he'd been rude to me but I was really angry at TJ for hitting him, that wasn't the way to handle things, especially in a public place. Why did he always have to act so childishly? I walked quickly away from the cafe and away from TJ, I needed to get out the store, away from everyone staring at me. I made my way out into the cold evening air, it was getting dark already.

"Tyler!" I heard TJ calling after me as I stormed down the empty round, I just wanted to go home. He kept calling my name, but I didn't want to reply to him. What had hurt the most was the way TJ selfishly waited until I was finally getting closer to someone else to tell me all these things. What also hurt is the way Codey (who I thought was the nicest guy ever) had shown his true colours. He was clearly a jealous and selfish child, but then again I could say the same about TJ too... I sighed as I heard footsteps coming up behind me and a strong, heavy arm round my shoulders. "I don't even wanna look at you right now!" I said, pushing his arm off me and walking faster.

"Dont walk away again..." I heard him say quietly. I suddenly felt a pain in my heart, it was the same pain i'd felt when I found out he'd slept with Lauren straight after i'd left his house. That night was seriously special for me, even if he had hurt me the day after, I had never felt that way before. I know i'd never done anything sexual, but I don't mean sex. I mean all the emotions that went with it. The way I felt as light as a feather, TJ had made me feel special, and if he was willing to actaully work with me, and give me the relationship that I wanted then why was I pushing him away. I stopped dead in my tracks and turned around. I waited for him to catch up with me.

TJ didn't stop walking, as he passed me he grabbed my hand and pulled me along with him. "Where are we going?" I asked him. But he didn't say anything. I thought it was cold out but being with TJ made me feel warm inside, I felt slightly weird as we entered his street, I remembered myself crying on the corner. I wanted to forget, I wanted to trust him this time. "You better call your house and let someone know your staying out tonight. My parents aren't home and I wanna spend the night with you, to talk things over" TJ finally said to me. I smiled to myself, I knew talking wasn't the only thing on his mind, but this time I didn't care. When we arrived at his house it felt slightly weird, that the last time we'd been there together I was screaming and crying at him. I walked into his living room, it seemed weird that someone like TJ had family, if you get what I mean? I couldn't imagine them all sitting in this room watching TV while the fire burned, then again his parents were often away. There was something about this room, it was cosy and friendly, but there was also a sense of lonliness about it.

On the side I saw a picture of a drawing in crayon. In messy writing it said at the top "My Family" and there were three stick drawings, with big red smiley mouths. At the bottom of the page it said 'By Toby Johnstone'. It seemed so weird, there are some people you just can't imagine as a little kid, TJ was one of them. I walked into a kitchen where TJ was pouring me a glass of coke. "Thanks Toby" I said without thinking, I looked up at him, incase he was mad that I called him that instead. "No ones called me that since I was like nine, unless an adults like mad at me or something, even then it's rare" he said laughing. "I like Toby better" I whispered. "I fucking hate it" he laughed again, putting his glass on the counter, I did the same. I then took a step closer to him, "I love it" I whispered, placing my head on his chest and arms round his waist. After a few seconds I looked up, and when I did a large warm tongue pludged into my mouth. I moaned with happiness and pressed my lips harder against Toby's.

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I sucked gently of Ty's full lips, god he tasted great, I was glad to be with him, glad to be touching his body again. My dick was rock hard and in need of attention, I grabbed his shoulders and pushed him down. I quickly unbuckled my trousers and pulled them down to my ankles along with my pants. Tyler looked up at me and blushed, my cock inches away from his face. I felt a warm hand wrap round my shaft, "that's it, don't be shy" I thought as I watched him move his face closer. Ty stuck his red tongue out and licked my piss slit sending shudders through my body. I held the back of his head and pushed my hips forward, my hard cock slipped between his soft lips, we both moaned loudly. I ran my fingers through his hair and tugged gently on the blonde strands, I closed my eyes and tipped my head back, feeling his hot wet mouth round my cock.

I don't know why, but there was something about having such a sweet innocent boy act like a slut for me, it really made me hot. I started pushing his head forward, not bothering to be gentle. I looked down at Ty and watched his eyes buldge as he realised that he was gonna deep throat whether he liked it or not. I heard slurping sounds and my cock became soaking wet as it slid down his throat. I watched his face go pink as he struggled not to choke, it felt so good, I couldn't take it anymore, I was tempted to cum in his mouth, but got him to pull off just in time. I wanted more than a blow job from him tonight. I pulled him up and dragged him into the front room, throwing him onto the couch. I pratically ripped off his shirt and tie and sucked roughly on his small pink nipples. He just sat there, gasping loudly, we both knew I was going to have my way with him, he was totally under my spell.

I went back up to his lips and pressed my mouth against his, I reached down and unzipped his trousers. Haha, this boy was all mine tonight. I yanked them off over his feet and started kissing and licking my way down to his crotch. I then stopped to raise his legs up onto the couch, so the cutie had his legs open, exposing everything. I kissed the ridge between his balls and arse hole, I looked back to his face and he smiled at me. I planted another kiss right on the tiny dark entrace of his arse. Sticking my tongue out I pulled apart his cheeks a little and stabbed his hole with it. "Oh!" I heard Tyler moan from above me, I then felt soft fingers through my hair, 'Oh Toby that feels so good!" he moaned sweetly again. Soon he loosend up and I tasted the insides of his body, it tasted different, stronger than the tight extrance, but still really nice, better than any pussy i'd ever had, even better than Lauren's.