Football Love

After I finished John invited me to grab something to eat but I had to be at the trainer’s room for a mandatory meeting. John had a disappointing look on his face when I told him about the meeting and my imagination started going wild once more. I just shook his hand and thanked him for helping me out. As I walked to the trainer’s room that’s across the campus I couldn’t help but think about the expression John gave when I refused his invitation. ‘It’s just my imagination…..please let it be my imagination’ I say to myself. I didn’t want to fall for a straight guy….not again. I don’t know why but every time I am around John I have butterflies in my stomach but at the same time I can be myself. All my life I never had a relationship; I have had sex but never a real relationship. Not to mention that one time when I fell for a straight guy; but no matter what I did or how much I tried he was a straight guy and is still true to this day. When I came to the realization that I couldn’t have the straight guy my heart broke and it took me a while to move on. From that point on I swore that I wouldn’t fall for a straight guy and now I find myself falling for one once more.

Before I knew it homecoming was here and the whole campus was celebrating. We have had a pretty good season so far with only just two losses. John and I have become good friends at this point and Monica is jealous of my new hot straight friend. The game surprisingly came at an easy win; guess because everyone was doing their best to win seeing that it’s homecoming. After the game I was outside the locker room; there is a small storage space that we sometimes put the stuff we bring out on the field. “Hey uh you want to come and celebrate with us” John says from behind me. I turn and almost blush as John has nothing on but a white towel around his waist. I try so hard not to look at his body but I couldn’t help but quickly glance at it. His big broad shoulders, his bulging biceps, his big chest and his rock hard abs. everything about John is just so good that I just wanted to jump him right here right now. “Sure” I manage to get out. “Great let me just take a shower and we’ll hit the bars” John says with a huge smile across his face. As he leaves a take a peek through the door and see his well muscled back and round ass I just sigh and mange to hide before John turned around.

John and I went on his truck to a close bar near campus but it was our first stop. Along the way more of the football team started to join us and with the help of alcohol I became sociable. The team is actually full of good guys; as I talk to them my theory that every jock is dumb is proven wrong. All are crazy but funny I have to admit they are really good guys. As the night went on I told Monica where I was and what I was doing “BITCH LOL” Monica says in a text. I laugh when I see this but she means well “Text me if you need a ride home” Monica says in text. John then comes close to me “We are going to another bar so finish your beer” he says while his face is close to my ear. Out of the seven of us we choose the less drunk to drive the SUV that belongs to someone in the team. Somehow John and I are at the very back; John sits next to me and tries to plug in his seatbelt.

I look at him struggle for a while until I get fed up and lean across him with my seatbelt plugged and manage to plug his in. I lean back to my seat and notice that John’s arm is across my shoulders but his hand is at the edge of the seat. I then look down and see that I am leaning against the left side of his body. I don’t know why but I press a little harder into his body. John notices this and chuckles; John then places his hand on my shoulder. We almost look like lovers but gladly no one notices us because we are the very back and it’s very dark. For some reason we inch our faces closer to each other; the right side of my forehead is about to touch the front side of John’s. The SUV then comes to a full stop snapping both of us back into reality; I look around and see that we are at the next bar.

After an hour in the bar I notice that it’s boys night; I am really glad for this cause Sabrina would have killed ten minutes into the night. John buys me some drinks and a couple of shots as well; John leaves to the restroom while I look around. Every player has a woman around to talk to while I just come to the realization that no one has bothered John and me while we were here. Sabrina does show off her status very well because none of the girls hit on John. Another hour goes by and it’s at this time that my head starts spinning and everything becomes blurry. I look around for the guys but I didn’t find them; I then go outside to the parking lot and don’t see the SUV.

I couldn’t believe the guys just left me here at the bar; I didn’t even find John. I was so pissed at this point that I search my pockets for my phone but found some money before I found my phone. I walk over to the street and climb into a cab; I told the driver where to go and before he could take off the door on the other side opens. A man jumps in and tells him the exact same location I just told him. Another student I couldn’t tell who it was because it was dark and I was drunk. But this guy has a nice body and I stay looking at it during the ride to my dorm. I was about to say something when this guy grabs the back of my head and presses his lips on me. I struggle to get free but he has me tight in his grasp. Without thinking I started to kiss him back and the whole back seat was filled with our kissing sounds. I then straddle him while he’s still sitting down on his side of the seat and we use our tongues savagely. I really didn’t care what the cab driver thought but I was having the best time of my life. I can’t believe I am kissing a random hot stranger; I then move my hand down and place it on top of his dick. A rock hard thick dick is just begging to be released from it’s cell of jean; he notices my hand on top of his dick and moans in my mouth. The cab then stops and without looking I give him all of the money I had in my pocket. I guess it was enough because I didn’t hear him object to the money I gave him.

We then stumble to the dorm rooms while still kissing each other as if two lovers who haven’t seen each other for a long time. We made our way through the dorm building and the next thing I know we are in my room. I don’t know how our clothes came off but we were naked when we hit the bed. I kiss him more aggressively and he kissed me the same way back. He is on top of me and begins to rub his thick cock with mine. We moan as the feeling of rubbing each other’s cock sends an electrifying sensation through our bodies. He then spreads my legs and puts his thick head just outside of my hole. All I can say is that it’s a good thing I was drunk because it lessen the pain when he pushed his head into me. I moan louder but was covered by his mouth as he kissed me. I love his body it’s hard on the inside but soft on the outside and every muscle stands out. He fucks me deep and slow at first giving me time to adjust to his big rod. My fingers dig into his shoulders as I feel his head around my insides; but at the same time it’s the most awesome feeling I have ever felt. Soon I adjust to his big rod and tell him to fuck me harder; he needed no further instruction as he slaps his dick in me with force.

His balls slap my ass over and over again and the room is filled with this noise. CLAP CLAP CLAP CLAP CLAP CLAP is all I hear as I burry my face in his big neck. I was in heaven as I loved my hot stranger fucking me; his dick pushed all the right buttons as it came out of me and shoved back in. he then faces the ceiling as I feel hot liquid in me and it never stops coming. He then comes crashing down on me and we both knock out for the night.

I feel someone move next to me and I get onto my elbows and look around the room fast. I thought I was in my dorm room but I am not. There are posters of bikini models and football players all over; it has the same structure as my room but it isn’t my room. The person then moves again next to me and I squint with one eye over to see who it is. As I adjust to the light coming into the room and hitting my face my eyes fly wide open. “John” I say his name and quickly cover my mouth. John is on his stomach with his hands under the pillow. I try to breathe slowly and quietly as I get some feeling back into my body; maybe I am still drunk or something. I blink several times but John is lying next to me naked and with a satisfied look in his face. His dark blond hair is messy and his back muscle stands out as the light coming from the window hits him. How could this happen? I mean score for the average Joe getting in bed with a hot guy but how could this happen? Now I am a slut.

I carefully pull the covers off of me and stand up; I had one foot on the floor when John stirs. I immediately freeze and just look at him; he’s still in the same position and his eyes are still close. I get off the bed and quickly put on my clothes; as I am putting on my clothes my butt feels sore. It’s not hard to imagine why that is; I just slept with the famous quarterback that everyone has a crush on. Wow I can’t believe I just slept with the quarterback; maybe I should celebrate. John stirs again in his bed and I quickly and quietly leave the room. I was going down the hall too caught up with my thoughts when I almost bump into someone. “Watch it” Sabrina snarls at me as she says this to me. “Sorry” I quickly say and walk faster to my dorm building. I get into my room and take a long hot shower.

I sleep for the rest of the day and when I woke up late afternoon I just lay there thinking. We were both drunk off our asses and we didn’t know what we were doing. I thought it was a stranger but all along it was John. How did John get in the same cab as me? I think he saw me and just got in as well but then again why would he kiss me and then fuck me. Maybe John wasn’t that drunk and thought I was. Maybe he wanted to know what it was like with a guy and a drunk encounter was the opportunity he was waiting for. Yeah that’s it he was just curious about sleeping with a guy and took the opportunity. Well he didn’t have to sneak around about it all he had to do was just ask me. But then again that isn’t a normal straight jock conversation to be asking a guy if he can sleep with him. Yeah it’s a drunken experiment; which explains all his past events on been nice to me from the beginning.

My mind was at ease for a minute everything seemed clear now and a smile came across my face. But then my eyes fly open as a new thought comes to mind. At the beginning of class after I told off Matt he came to apologize for him. But the thing that’s bothering me is that he knew my name before I even started been nice to him. How did John know my name? I am just been paranoid again which then throws off his kindness to me off. Maybe he didn’t want to just sleep with me and I have been ignoring all the signals he has been giving me. It’s at this point that I come to another thought; I hate to admit it but John has pushes all of my buttons. I don’t know why but I think I am falling for John; I slap my forehead hard as I came to the realization that I am falling for yet another straight guy.

On Monday I went to class as if nothing had happened between me and John. I sat down next to Matt who was busy talking to John. “Hey Alex so where did you go?” Matt says to me. “What?” I say thinking that John told Matt about our encounter. “You disappeared from the bar the other day” Matt says with a smile. “I thought you guys left and so I got a cab back to my dorm” I say keeping my eyes on Matt only. “Dude I don’t even know how I got to my room that night” John says to Matt “Do you by any chance know how I got to my room Alex?” John asks me. “Nope I don’t know” I say not making eye contact with him. So I guess it’s safe to say that John doesn’t remember anything for now. After class John and I walked and talked for a while. His manly voice is just so mesmerizing and for a second I want to feel his lips on mine once again. “John I need to tell you something” I say as I stop dead in my tracks.

I then look at him for the first time in the day. His big blue eyes focus on what I have to say. ‘I have feelings for you’ I say in my head over and over again but can’t bring myself to say it. “I um” I begin to say. But before I can say anything Sabrina jumps once more in between us and hugs John while kissing him. John grabs her and kisses her back. She then turns to me “Look” she says as she extends her left hand to me. A small diamond ring is on her finger. “I am sorry what where you going to say Alex” John tells me as he stands behind Sabrina with his arms around her. “I um….” I stammer for a while. “That I heard a rumor about an engagement and didn’t know if what you guys” I say with a smile. “Thanks” Sabrina says and turns her attention to John. I was smiling on the outside but inside my heart was breaking into pieces. I then clear my throat and walk away. I hear John call out my name once but I just keep walking as a tear comes down my face. I met Monica in the cafeteria “What’s wrong?” she asks as I sit down. I then just tell her everything about that night. Once I am finished Monica stares at me with her mouth wide open. “Well that explains everything” Monica says as she gets over the shock. “What do you mean?” I ask. “Every time I made a pass at him he wouldn’t respond” Monica says deep in thought. “He’s faithful to Sabrina” I say not interested in where she is going with this. “He’s a guy every straight guy responds to my teasing but not him” Monica says while she snaps back to reality and looks me in the eye.

 “Then it makes sense that he is gay but he’s trying to hide it by having a girlfriend” Monica says smiling at her revelation. “Please…..things don’t ever go that way with me” I say still not convinced. “Alex why don’t you tell him how you feel” Monica says with a soft tone. “Remember how it went the last time I told my feelings to a straight guy” I say remembering every second of it. I told my straight crush how I felt and he just laughed and called me names. It was after that he stopped talking to me and just made my life miserable. That’s one of the reason I keep my feelings to myself; especially straight guys. That night I lay awake on my bed thinking about things and I just started to cry. “I hate my love life” I say to the ceiling and cry myself to sleep.

A couple of weeks pass by and John talks nothing but a rehearsal dinner he has been planning for. It’s at this point that I want to tell him how I feel about him. Sometimes I want to tell him about that night when we slept together but I can’t say it. I just want to blurt it out to him every time he talks to me but I can’t he seems happy. Then came the day of the rehearsal dinner; it was to be held on a luxurious building near downtown. John invited me but I really didn’t want to go I couldn’t sit there and see Sabrina kiss him. Then someone knocks at my door; at first I think it might be John coming to confess his love for me. But yet again things don’t go that well with me; I open the door and Monica is standing there. She let’s herself in and looks me straight in the eye “ENOUGH” she says to me almost yelling too. “Listen Alex I know things haven’t gone to well with you in the past but you have to stop playing the victim” Monica says in a gently tone.

“You want John to be with you then you take a chance and let him know” Monica places her hand on my shoulder. “Why are you encouraging this exactly?” I say with a weird expression on my face. “Because as much as I hate you for sleeping with him…. I would rather have you in his life then that bitch” Monica says with a smile. I smile back and quickly put on my shoes and head out the door “GOOD LUCK” I hear Monica say as I leave the room. I then almost bump into a guy that’s passing me. I turn around and see that the guy I almost bump into goes into my room. That bitch is using my room as her own sex getaway spot. I have no time to kick her out I have to get to downtown and I need to get there fast.

The cab driver floors it when I give him a hundred dollar bill. He is avoiding all cars that are going the speed limit. I just hang on to my seatbelt as I am yanked left and right in the backseat. I get to the building and I know that the dinner is at the top floor. I rush into the elevator; it takes forever to get to the top floor. As soon as the doors open I run into a waiting room but bump into John hard. John drops a small note that he has; and as for me I am on the floor. John is a lot stronger than me so it was like hitting a wall when I bump into him. “You all right Alex?” John asks me as he helps me up from the floor. “Yeah just fine…” I say grabbing my head. I then stare at John and look into his piercing blue eyes. “What are you doing here I thought you had some stuff to do today” John says with half a smile. “I just came by to tell you….” I say but never finish the sentence. “I just wanted you to know….” I begin again but again I can’t finish the sentence. I was about to tell John what I came here to say but Matt opens the door to the great big hall and tells John that they are waiting for him. Matt gives me a nod and closes the door again. John and I are at the waiting room alone as we stare at each other; for some reason I thought of him for a change.

He is happy with Sabrina I don’t know why and probably never will know but he is happy. So who am I to ruin everything for him; all I will do is just complicate things or maybe lose a good friend that I hated to begin with. “I just forgot to tell YOU….Congratulation” I say with a smile. John looks at me and smiles; he then comes closer to me and gives me a hug. John is taller than me so half my face is pressed up against his shoulder. We hug for a while; his skin is soft but his muscles are hard. I take a deep breath and pull away from him. I was about to leave “Stay” John says to me not breaking our eye contact. “Please stay….for me” John says in a soft voice almost as if I would refuse his offer. I think about it for a minute and just nod; John gives me a smile and motions me to follow him into the dining hall. The hall is almost full; the guests consist of mostly the football team, the coaches and both sides of the family. I just talk with Matt the whole time telling jokes and having a good time. Sometimes I would glance over at John but he is too busy with his fiancée and her family. About an hour later John gets everyone’s attention as he speaks into a microphone. “Can I have your attention please” he says as he waits for everyone to stop talking. “I just wanted all of you to know how happy I am that all of you came” John says as he looks around the room. “I also wanted to tell you that a date has been set for the wedding and I expect everyone to be there” he says with a smile as he looks at me.

I smile back knowing that what I did was the right thing to do. “The date is for…”John begins but doesn’t finish the sentence. John looks around the room for a while “I am sorry I can’t do this” John says with a sad tone. “I can’t marry you” John says as he looks at Sabrina. “After what I know I just can’t do this” John says and puts down the microphone on the table. John then begins to walk out of the room and glances over at me. My mind then races with ideas and my heart pounds harder in my chest. Did John know what I wanted to say to him? Is John really breaking up with Sabrina? What does he know about her that made him change his mind? So many things came to my mind but I had no answer to any of them. The last thing I see is John walking out of the room while leaving everyone including me with a lot of unanswered questions.

Part 2 coming soon…..