The most painful yet beautiful experience with a jock!

We then went into the cafeteria and I sat with the lacrosse jocks. They were all real cute but Donovan was the hottest. They all ate a lot of food I was unsure how a human could eat so much.
"hey! Andrews, you gonna eat? Or can I have your steak?" Jimmy, a guy in my last years algebra 2 class asked. he was now a varsity jock seeming were juniors now.
"no, I'm not hungry you can have it man." I passed him my country fried steak breakfast tray.
"you shore your not gonna eat that?" Donovan reassured me.
"yeah I'm not feeling hungry" I said quietly.
"Kay guys were gonna split!" Donovan said the the table. And stood me up.
"MUSTANGS!" the table shouted like a frat.
" come on let's go" he said under his breath.

I fallowed him to the east wing, where no one goes before class starts.
"Michael? What's wrong with you man you seem out of it?" Donovan said.
"What are you talking about?" I said not really masking my emotions.
"Michael?....were you and Matthew Ronnky dating?- are you gay!?" he said with a weird expression on his face.
I was shocked. I couldn't bare to loose another friend especially not Donovan I Love Him!
" What! No, what the FUCK man! I'm not gay!" I said angrily even I believed it.
"oh,....no.... man, I'm not..I'm not saying you are. I..I just thought- and your sad and, Buzz kill... He's -he's not here and" he sounded apologetic and frightened. Almost as if he thought I'd stop being his friend.
"it's cool man I know what you mean, it's okay I'm not gay though." I said comforting and reassuring him everything was alright.

"I just got a lot on my mind, it has nothing to do with Matt" I lied to him and it hurt me to have to lie to Donovan about both my sexuality and Matt but I couldn't tell him I was gay or he'd stop talking to me. The bell rang and I told him I'd catch up with him later. We parted ways. Walking into my first period I was praying not to see Matt there and he wasn't. I knew I was going to face him sooner or later we were bound to have one or two classes together. By third period I still hadn't seen Matt which was odd I normally bumped into him at my locker if we didn't have class together. I think I was starting to get to anxious. Third period was Spanish. I had Donovan in this period I remember I told him to take it.

Donovan was early to class as was I. We met our teacher Mrs. Blancá and she told us we could sit together. The desks in this class were for two. So I was closer to Donovan in this period.
"hey, so you seen Matt yet?" he asked
" no, I think I'll bump into him later in the day." I replied.
"true, so I forgot to ask. how was you summer?"
"my summer? It was grate I had fun" I answered
"that's good. You wanna sit with me at lunch today? We got room for you...and Matt if he shows."
*he's not gonna show* I thought to myself.
"yeah sounds good we'll sit with you" I agreed
Class started and I begged for time to freeze. I tried to enjoy the time with Donovan. I could tell he knew Matt and I weren't talking, just didn't know why. He was trying to cheer me up in class, flipping to pictures of naked women in the Spanish history book. I pretend to laugh so his effort wouldn't go unaprisiated

Then the bell rang.
" ugh, thank god I'm starving let go!" he smiled and dragged me to the door.
I started to slow down and then made up a lame excuse.
"shit! I forgot my lunch money I'll meet you there"
"what!? No it's cool I'll pay for you" he shouted
"No it's cool just go I'll catch up." And I began to walk away to the west wing where my locker was. When I got there the tardy bell rang, I noticed I was walking slow and didn't care. I took my time opening my locker. And kept messing up my combination.
" ugh! You fucken' locker!"
" you keep stoping on the 32, instead of the 34." it was a vice I knew extremely well. I almost bursted into tears but shifted my emotions towards anger.
" what the FUCK do you want? you fucking, asshole!?" He flinched thinking I was gonna swing at him which I though I was going to do too.
"nothing, look I didn't wanna upset you-"
I interrupted.
"well it to fucken' late for that now huh!?"
"Michael, look you lied to me man, and I was upset about that. You could have told me you were gay when we first met?"
"yeah, hey matt nice to meet you. Hey guess what I'm gay! Yeah that's a real icebreaker."
"well you could have told me when we got close, like after a month or two. But you waited three years! What's that say on our friendship? I'm over here thinking we've been best friends for years and you come in with the news like you just started to accept me as your best friend."

I was shocked. He was going about this in a sensitive way. I though he walked out and didn't say a thing to me, because I was gay and it was all really because he thought I didn't think of him as my best bud.

I began to cry. " man you'll always be my best friend!" and I wrapped my arms around his neck and hugged him.
"I love you man" he said to me
"I love you too!" I cried.
He patted my back and eased me of him.
"were still in school so stop acting gay." he said jokingly with a smile.
"haha" I laughed and wiped my tears.
"let's go to lunch man" he said to me.
We both walked to lunch and I was so happy to see Matt still talking to me I forgot about Donovan and his invite. But lunch was almost over. Matt and I sat at our usual table and began to talk about our class and this year we had two classes together.

By the end of lunch Donovan came to our table.
"hey! Guys what's up? Buzz kill, dude, where you been? Michael's been looking everywhere for you."
"class" Matt responded uninterested in his effort for small talk.
"oh, sorry Don I spaced on the invite! I just caught up with Matt and forgot."
"what invite?" Matt said curiously
"it's cool man don't sweat it, tomorrow!" Donovan said eagerly
"to sit in there table. I said it would be cool"
"oh, okay sounds cool" Matt said agitated
The bell rang for fifth period and we all parted ways. I had class with Matt after fifth and was ready to get out of here. Once the bell rang I hurried to my locker for my next class and Matt was waiting for me as usual. We walked to class and it just felt good to have my friend again. By seventh period it ended with Matt, Donovan, and i having Gym like freshmen year when I first spoke to Donovan.

Once we got into class I quickly got dressed and went out to the football field and started to chat with Donovan before we got in our class groups. It continued like this for several weeks and then Matt found the courage to ask me if I like Donovan.
"what do you mean? He's straight.... Ugh I just think he's cute" i said. knowing it can't go further that him just being a pal.
"I knew it. But Why? he's just so cocky, with his jocky attitude and muscular body." Matt asked.
"he's sweet, you don't have him in classes like I do."
"what ever you could do better" Matt scoffed
"he's not GAY!"
"Okay, okay I was just saying." Matt teased

As the week flew by I was then starting to realize this was Donavan's last year in high school he's a senior. I would never see him again. I went to all his lacrosse game's to cheer him on I though that was the least I could do to show I cared for him with out expressing I was gay. I went with Matt downing the sport every game. Donovan was quite the showoff and I just loved it when he danced every goal he'd make. Our school was on a winning streak and today was our 6th consecutive win thanks to Donovan! Once the game was over I hurried to congratulate him and the rest of the team.
"holly shit guys, you know how to kick ass!" I shouted to the team.
"WHOOO!!! Thanks to the Don Man!!" freddy,another jock shouted.
"haha! Naw it's you guys!" Don, replied modestly
"hey,Michael look don't say No, hear me out!" he said.
"yeah" I replied
"were throwing a party for tonights game. come, it's at my house. I can drive you, you won't have to worry about a ride." he said hoping it was persuasive enuf.
"uh-I don't know-?"
"Matt can come too, if you want" he said unenthusiastically
"alright!" I agreed
I was staying over Matt's house so my parents wouldn't care and I already turned down his party invites countless times but this year I different I'm a junior.
"COOL! Let me get changed and I'll meet you in the parking lot by my car!" he was so happy, his grin was beautiful.
"okay! I'll be by you car!" I shouted as he ran to the locker room.

I told Matt the plan, though he disagreed and tried to talk me out of it. He knew I really wanted to go because I liked him.
"okay, let go to his car" Matt growled
We went to the parking lot and I remembered I'd never seen his car.
Luckily Donovan showed up.
"hey, I have to carry some equipment in my car so one of you's gonna have to shot-gun with Jimmy.
"I'll go" Matt vaulentieerd quickly.
"okay, looks like you'll be riding with me michael, that cool? Don asked
"yeah, Its cool" I said
"cool" he answered then walked towards his Lexus SC. My jaw dropped.
"stop drooling, it's just a car haha." He joked
"I'm not drooling"
"get in, let me show you my skills." he said all cocky

I got in and waved at Matt as we drove off. It was quiet for a minute. As we drove out
the school lot, to his house.
" It's not that long a drive, we should be there 10 minutes Top."
"you mind if I play some music?" he asked
" no, it's cool" I said
He started messing with his iPod touch and said "this one!"
It was secondhand serenade- fall for you, I was surprised by the song because the lyrics were saying some pretty strong word on his part. I began to think, he had a smirk on his face *could he be saying he likes me? Is tonight the night he'll tell me he loves me? What the he'll am I thinking I'm letting my gay emotions get the best of me it's just a song!*
"dude can we change it this song is gay." I said to him.
The smirk wipe clear off his face.
"oh sorry, yeah your kinda right it is sorta gay"
"haha" we both laughed nervously.
He then played a bunch of heavy metal crap that I pretended to like. Anything that wouldn't make me trail off into fairy land thinking he's gay.

"here we are!"
We pulled up to a mansion three times bigger than mine, and mine wasn't small.
"nice pad" I complemented.
"thanks"
We walked in and His house was already set up for a party.
"looks like someone knew they were gonna win" I said sarcastically
"Ha! No just thought ether way win or loose, celebrate the effort"
"wow that's nice"
"yeah" he sighed
We chatted for a few minutes before people started to show. I then started to venture off to the side and hung out with Matt in the kitchen. I think we were three hours into the party when Donovan came into the kitchen really buzzed.
"Michael! Hey everybody it's my bud Michael! Say hi!" he mumbled
"Donovan are you drunk?" I asked kinda worried
"what! No only pussy's get drunk at parties" he said, almost tipping over.
"whoa! Man watch out" I caught him before he could fall. My palms on both his pecks and back.
"thanks man, nice to know you looking out for me!" he shouted.
"yup don't mention it."
"oh Shit!" he said
"what!?" I answered
And he rushed to the sink and vomited.
"ugh-" he said exhausted

I then grabbed a bottle of water and banana ( just a drunken remedy), put his arm around my shoulder and walked pass the crowed to the back yard patio. He was so heavy and put little effort to help me walk him. Once we reach the patio I was out of energy. I placed him in a sitting position looking to the woods in his back yard, and sat beside him. I was so tired from walking him here I just rested my head on his shoulder and let out a breath. I was Completely dumb founded to what I was doing, but to my surprise he said-
"this is perfect,...just how I wanted us..."
I quickly jerked my head off his shoulder and freaked.
"I'm So sorry I don't know what's wrong with me....I...I..I was tired and you,... Your... Heavy.. I'm... I'm .....I gotta go!"
I started to get up and he grabbed my arm and dragged me down forcefully.
"No! Don't go! Please don't go." he begged, and stared into my eyes with guilt.
"what? What do you mean?"
"Michael you know what I mean."he cried
"huh?" I squinted.
"I love you! I truly, really, deeply love you! And you never picked up on it. I know you can't love me like I do you. I know you love Matt. But....but.. I just had to tell you. I just had to." he began to cry I saw tears start to flow.
" I'm graduating in six months and, am leaving I just had to tell you how I felt before I left or I'd regret it."

My heart was beginning to hurt and my eyes started to water.
"I love you too! Donovan I love you! I've always loved you! matt's my friend he's straight. I just thought every time you hint at me, I was going crazy and it was my gay imagination leading me to believe you liked me!"
I just hugged him and berried my face in his neck, tears and all.
"but I did like you!"
"I know I'm sorry, I'm sooo sorry. I know now, I know now!"
I felt him pull away and I stopped to see his face still beautiful just filled with tears. We stared into each other eyes for a few seconds, and he leaned in to me and went for the kiss. Oh it was so magical his lips were like silk rubbing on mine. He then placed me smooth on my back, with no discomfort, as we kissed and mounted me. My hand caressing his scalp, running through his hair. Gasping for breath every time our lips parted for a second. I could feel his dick start to get hard in his jeans and mine wasn't a surprise ether. I then gently pulled his head back.
"I can't do it like this, not out here, not with you like this"
He ignored what I said and started to kiss my neck.
I grabbed hold of his face with compleat seriousness.
"Donovan! Not like this, not with you like this. Okay" I repeated.

He stopped kissing me and rested his head on my chest.
"....your heart beat is beautiful" he said
"hahaha!" I bursted out laughing and he joined my seconds afterwords.
"I love you Michael Andrews" he whispered
"I love you Donovan Timothy Stevahn" I whispered
"let's go in and enjoy the party" I told him
"okay" he replied
We both got up from our laying position and headed inside. We were shocked to see an empty house. Everyone had left. We'd only been outside an hour. I then grabed my phone to check the time i had a txt from Matt and it was 2:00am. The party started at 11:00pm
" I guess, everyone partied long enuf" Donovan joked.
"haha, yeah I guess so,they all left."
Donovan seemed to be less buzzed, from an hour ago, before we made out. He grabed my hands and kissed the back of them.
"let's go upstairs to my room" He said sweetly.
I didn't say a thing just nodded and fallowed behind him as he guided me through his house holding my hand.

"this is it." he stopped at these mahogany framed double doors, and pushed them open. He gently pull me in and before my eyes was a double king size bed with a golden silk bed set probably Egyptian cotton. Filled with white flower peddles.
" and what you knew you were gonna get laid?" I said sarcastically
"no, I was hopping to make love." se said passionately in my ear.
I almost melted in his arms. He then kissed my cheek and said he'd be right back. I sat by the bed knowing what was gonna happen in several minutes. I prepared myself mentally for the decision I was about to make. I wasnt sure if Donovan knew i was a virgin and the thought of having sex was scary to me, I kew it was gonna hurt. Don walked back in to the room with nothing but his boxer briefs. I instantly got hard, his muscles were infatuating and his face was considerate and I just knew I was ready to give myself to him. He walked up to me and started to kiss me. He then picked me up in his arms, as we kissed and moved towards the bed. He set me down on the pedals and ripped my shirt off as if it were a pice of paper. We kept kissing and I noticed he brushed his teeth I could taste the Minty-ness in every kiss instead of vodka.

He then removed my pants with out disrupting our kiss. Mounted me, I spread my legs apart to let him in, his dick was solid rock rubbing on mine. He stopped the kiss and rested his forehead on mine trying to catch his breath.
"are you sure? I'll take it easy on you, I'll let you be in control" he whispered, with barley any breath
"no,....I want you to take control," I said with a light pant
He kissed me again then reached into his night stand by his bed and pulled out bottle of lube.
"I don't want to hurt. I want to love you,... okay" he whispered like an angel